A Londoner' s journey to a Porn Free life

Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by Brit_91_kd, Mar 4, 2018.

  1. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    Hi man.

    I do excerice which does help. Never really got into this whole mediation. I know a lot of people said that it helps so I guess I will give it go and see where it takes me.
     
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  2. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    Appreciate your kind words.

    If I am being honest no. Like you say you just go with the motion. I have started to make a routine of reading a certain amount of pages and increasing it by the day. Started to take a lot more cold showers in which it does help but it still really early days.

    All the best to you too
     
  3. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    Day 2.

    Well felt so lacked of energy as I had a wet dream last night. The relapsed I had occurred from a wet dream the night before. Really just been keeping my self busy and as pointed out earlier continuing with my cold showers etc.

    Roll on Day 3
     
  4. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    Day 3

    Nothing much again to report on. Done the usual routine. Continuing with the cold showers and extensive reading. Mind is starting to be elsewhere than just thinking about sex all the time.

    Starting to impliment push ups to this journey. I havent done these in the long time and already as taken it told.

    Roll on Day 4
     
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  5. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    Day 4.

    Again still following the routine as I previously set out. Nothing much apart from that. Only highlight of the day was going to the football (I believe you call it soccer in the usa) we won woo.

    Roll on Day 5
     
  6. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    Day 5.

    Apologies for the late reply. I beleive there was problems with the site.

    Hardest day so far. The urges have been very strong. This was the first day i had not followed my usual routine. Been a huge struggle.
     
  7. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    Day 6.

    Feel slightly better compared to yesterday. Went back to my usual routine

    Done a lot reading. Two interviews this week as i am the process of changing jobs. Quite stressful times.

    Roll on day 7
     
    Last edited: Apr 16, 2018
  8. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    :mad::mad: :(:( back at Day 0. Relapsed 18:37

    Couldnt cope with the urges as pointed out two days piror.

    Well keep you updated pior to Day 1.
     
    Last edited: Apr 17, 2018
  9. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    Day 1.
    Been a very busy day. This also includes a lot of reading.

    What i realised today is that I operate with a routine. I didn't do any reading and as a result relapsed. I really need to stick to this routine!

    Roll on Day 2
     
  10. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    Hello guys.

    Right my update.

    Day 7/12

    I have gone over a week. I have decided to take small steps rather than big and putting 7/90. Also day 12 was the longest streak I have been since the turn of 2018. Once I have surpassed day 12 I will strive for day 20 and so on etc etc.

    Anywho... as mentioned just completed a week quite effectless tbh. I have seen that my concentration and somewhat my confidence has slightly improved. I had someone mention Friday night that I am more "energetic" which i guess is a good thing. Already feel slighty less socially awkward based on Friday night. I haven't experienced hardly any negative thoughts.

    Anywho Day 7 also including me having a wet dream literally just woke up from it. I don't really feel tired as like previous encounters from this.

    There is something about this streak which is making me determined that this is one that I am going to succeed. I am determined to push myself to strive!
     
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  11. chrism

    chrism It's time to make a change.

    Hey man, just read through your journal and seems like you are making some good progress :)

    Must have felt really good to not be feeling as socially awkward and to have been told you are more energetic, I’d say that is definitely a good thing!

    I like your idea about going for 12 days. That’s a nice goal to have.

    As you say it’s always good to have some small steps to achieve that give you a sense of accomplishment!

    Keep it up man!
     
  12. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    Really appreciate the kinds words bud. Yep small steps I am taking.
     
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  13. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    Day 14/19

    So just about hit 14 days.

    From day 12 to 14 has been really hard. I have to be honest I have peeped on a couple sites.. I know... in a couple of hours I should hit day 15. Been at work so my mind has been fully focused on that.

    Again setting little targets to a bigger objective.
     
  14. Freedom from Servitude

    Freedom from Servitude Active Member

    Hi Brit_91_kd, I have just discovered your journal. It is nice to find another person from Britain on this forum. There doesn't seem to be many of us about! :) I am slightly younger than you so I can empathise with your journey.

    Well done on hitting nearly two weeks of sobriety. Your intention to start small is a shrewd idea. Our minds aren't very good at looking at the big road ahead. We can only take one step at a time, not knowing what the day will bring. The past is dead, the future irrelavant, only the present matters. At one step at a time we can do anything.
     
  15. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    Day 2/14

    Now complete. Just a very quick update. Will explain my non existence from here a bit later on. Just want to get this journal back up and running!
     
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  16. Brit_91_kd

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    Day 3/14

    Now complete.

    Just last month been a nightmare. Constant relaseping. Binging, couldn't go two days to be honest. Affected my work as it feels like my memory is going.. which is crazy for someone in their 20s.

    Taking each day as it comes..
     
  17. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    7/14

    It's been a long time! The last few months have been dreadful due to unnecessary relapses.

    Anyways that's in the past and is able to make it to the full week since my last relapse.

    Feel pretty proud baring in mind the dreadful few months i had with no fap.

    It may say 14 but I am taking baby steps and 14 days is shockingly the longest streak I had from the turn on the year.

    Bring on Day 8
     
  18. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    0/4

    My last relapse was last night. Feel like utter complete shit. Here at work and haven't really chatted to anyone. Part of me does not want to speak to anyone. What I have realised is that not one person asked if I am ok or anything baring in mind I have been so quiet ever since I got in 5 hours ago...

    Feel miserable and tired. Due to complete Day 1 later on tonight..
     
  19. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    Day 1 complete
     
  20. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    Day 2 complete
     

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