@Doper You are right. My comment was a bit harsh. I apologise. It‘s just, that I am a bit confused about my own situation and fear to relapse. Good chance that I reminded unconscious self with the text above. i just want the best for everyone here because I feel you guys. @NewStart19 Dude, I am sorry that I might have caused stress or something. Take it easy, we all go through it. It was meant motivational. I wish you all the best!