I've been at it for a while now and although my life has changed since nofap I am still as riddled with self doubt as I have always been. Maybe I was expecting too much from nofap and quitting porn but it's like my friends constantly tell me I should and could be more self confident but I still am very shy around attractive females. It's like I feel so different than everyone else, like I'm a misfit. My life took a nasty turn after high school and I got into excessive drinking and then later on excessive cannabis smoking which I've both quit quite recently, and have even give up smoking cigarettes for the last week. I experienced real happiness once in my life and that was in high school when I had some confidence going and was on the verge of dating a girl I liked. I was watching alot of porn at the time and remember realising that an attempt at sex would be useless cos my cock felt numb. Now I have quit porn for like eight months (with 2 relapses and a few times masturbating without porn and quite a few wet dreams) and I have to be honest, things aren't really any better than before, to the point where I'm doubting that porn was ever the problem in the first place or I am just a fucked up individal. Also I should mention I was diagnosed with schizophrenia a few years ago which had me doubting myself even more. Maybe I'm still in the flatline but I should mention I didn't used to fap that often before discovering, only like 3 times a week or something it was especially like during my teenage years and early adult life that I would fap like crazy. Also I am on antipsychotics and anti-depressants which don't help.