38yo, I will overcome this too (PIED)

Coming up on 100 days PMO-free. 6 days orgasm-free.

I feel good, confidence has been decent but not amazing off the charts. Libido is what I imagine as normal, but I have not had morningwood or woken up in middle of night with boners. Thats perhaps concerning. I get semi-boners thinking about things when driving for example, but they go away and are not very annoying. Energy is ok. I enjoy talking to people and do not get bored.

No more sex with the girl I was last with, we couldnt get schedules to work for both of us this week and she left my area now. I am bit down about not seeing her again, and if this progression-curve keeps up for me its not very likely I will be single next time she's around... she dont visit often and I will probably not go chasing her. I have a date that I set up quite some time ago coming up with a really sweet girl I've been talking to for over a month now. I will be around her area in two weeks.

It's still unbelievable to me that these things are a part of my reality now.

 

Science fiction! :3

Do yourself a favor and don't get into people who are more than an hour with public transport away. I have a masters degree in that, cannot recommend.

 

Hehe thanks, but I don't have much of an option. I live in a very small town. It will sort itself out when I find the right one.

 

Hi OldMillenial,

It's been good to read your story up to now. Good luck with your ongoing changes.

 

Thank you for reading. I am already such a different person from the one who started this thread. I hope I can inspire someone to snap out of the same bad place of just wasting away that I was in.

 

100 days without porn. I am still not sure about my libido. Morning woods are not really there. I MO'd this morning, it was not an impulsive decision. It was because I started to feel anxious and needy interacting with women. I do not need much, just a bit of recalling real life events from this autumn gets me over the edge very fast.

Trying to find balance still. I very much wish I could exchange my DE-problem with girls to a PE-problem.

 

I MO'd three days in a row beginning of week. Only the first was not impulsive, but thought about decision. I stopped now. I will probably go for 2-3 weeks this time.

We will see, I have date coming up in 2 weeks I want to feel good and confident then. This one I am actually a bit nervous about, don't know why. Maybe because I will actually have to speak and don't do slow communication through Google translate which turned out to be a good fit for me.

My texting with girls have always been pretty decent. Talking, not so much...

I remember the old days when I used to hold back while texting because I didn't actually dare to see them. I could easily get them to want too see me, but I knew I could not live up to my texting haha

 

Congrats on 100 days. I am not going to MO until day 90, that's my goal, 1 day at a time.

Nice to have a date in the diary! I am starting to set intentions about meeting someone