MO'd late last night again. Barely used fantasy again, and I practically suffer from PE with my own hand, and DE with women. However, doing kegels or not is determining if I come or not - I think I could have incredible orgasm-control if I could only keep erections while having sex... It is insane the "chaser effect" I am experiencing. Kind of shocked. I had an erection for most of yesterday. Also I am sick and not working out, so there's few other outlets now. Today I went through my youtube-algoritm and deleted everything dating/couple-related. I used to use it for investing mainly, and passing time (dopamine abusing) watching science shit. Now it's looking more like it used too. I have a couple of dates lined up through dating apps, just far away from me in bigger cities so not actionable right now. This is giving me hope I will not forever live alone but is not fulfilling my insane cravings this very second. My profile is far from as optimized as I plan to make it so I havent even activated it in my small city... I usually get some likes from atleast not morbidly obese single-moms here and there, maybe I could set up some FWB-thing. Or at the very least get some much needed dating experience. Really not looking to become a bonus-dad tho.... Yeah I dont know, I'm all over the place right now - need to get back on track.