Topic says PIED, but its that + Performance and social anxiety, a bag of insecurities, many stemming from childhood I suspect. I've gotten myself out of a hole of body shame, poor health, poor mental health, I've been in my entire life really, except the last 9 months. Mostly with diet (carnivore), and so many aspects of my life/health are improved but the last two weeks have proven there is alot of damage to still heal and overcome. My sexual experience were limited to making out with a few girls before I was 25, and visiting a couple of sex workers also before 25, to overcome insecurities and anxiety. Well, didnt work so well but chalked the ED up to the couple of beers I had to muster the courage and also masturbating in the hotelroom to the thought I was going to experience the real thing soon. So in late 2022 I made alot of changes and this june I thought I got to go see some SW's to get rid of these insecurities with women I still have. Maybe then I would have the guts to speak, and escalate with women. Well, I researched and saw all the amazing women that were offering their services willingly and independently in a nearby country, where it is legal too. I think I masturbated 6-7 times the day I saw what I was able to with money experience and this pretty much continued for a couple of days. The new fix was found since I been tired of porn for years now. I actually injured the skin on my dick. Probably me having worked out for a while now, perfect diet, feeling handsome, springfeelings, and you name it (the new fix) increased testosterone and libido. I was laughing when I got hard-on after hard-on, and kind of happy a man nearing his 40's still could go all day. If only a woman wouldve been there, I thought. Now in hindsight I realize it probably would have only killed my orgasm-streak. I've seen triggerwarnings here so everything from now on might be that. Anyways, I cut down on masturbating the weeks before my trip (once or twice) and finally got to my first girl, a petite girl in my taste, very nice and overall serviceminded. But from a country far away, I always dreamed of "the girl next door". She was not it. I was a nervous wreck but I got a decent hard-on, she was still something jaw-dropping. I was kind of nervous about the condom but she had such a good bj I could maintain erection for a while but when it came to penetration there was not enough stimuli, erection died down and it snowballed from there. Met girls after that that should've turned me on even more, among those a gorgeous young girl, body to die for and ticked the girl next door box so well and so new in the business I got to learn her a few tricks like putting on the damn condom (which I still was kind of blaming) on a limp dick with the mouth. Only way to get it on really, if not hard. Anyways, same story erection so-so, actually managed to have sex with her for a bit but had to give up. I managed to get her pretty comfortable with hands and mouth, she stayed for hours longer than agreed with me and I was walking on clouds after this despite ED. Still hard to kick her out of my head. Two more girls, one insanely hot woman only a few years younger than me and praised by other sexbuyers so def experienced but I was in such a downward spiral she only got short bursts of half-erections out it. It wakes up briefly but then dies down and after a while its just not a lifesign down there. It really hurts having dream girls naked beside you and not being able to even get horny, as most of you know. Anyways, after a life of no intimacy, kissing, skin on skin-contact the money was well spent and I atleast really enjoyed that. I only saw girls that offered that. After this little trip I cant even get hard to porn, I had to try now after the last experience. I think I stressed so much and was so anxious about meeting these amazing women the last thing my body wants is sex so I think the first weeks will be easy. I have not watched porn or had the urge too for about 1,5 months now except small tests to see if my ED is mental or physical. I'm gonna go work on this for atleast a year now and perhaps return next year. If the magic of no porn has not gotten my lazy ass to get a girlfriend, I atleast feel confident enough to perhaps try and get a girl to sleep with me. I will probably get a prescription for the blue pill to get over performance anxiety. My earlier insecurities about being a fish out of water in bed is kindof gone, now its only the dick that has to stand. My regiment will include no porn of course, quit nicotine, keep up with diet, start lifting heavy, keep up long cardio-vascular sessions (cycling) and increase VO2-max. I am not sure how to go about the near-total lack of sensation when it comes to condoms. I am not convinced not touching your dick actually restores nervedamage from deathgripping that fast. I've seen people have success with fleshlights+condoms and so on, but I do not want practice of that kind to interfer with me getting out there and finding myself a partner.