Yes, you read that right. I'm a 35-year-old guy who has never had sex, never had a girlfriend and only been kissed once (about five years ago). I also have depression and suicidal thoughts, which is no doubt related to this, and I'm on Prozac for it. I'll probably add more details about myself as I go along. Firstly, just to say, I think this website is brilliant and it's great that complete strangers are helping each other through their addictions. I first got into porn in my mid-teens through still images my friend had downloaded (the internet was still just starting to take off at that point). Over time, as my internet bandwidth increased, so did my porn use and my tastes also escalated into more and more hardcore stuff. Then in January this year, I suddenly decided to search online for "porn addiction" and came across this and related wesbsites. After reading much information on the subject and people's experiences of rebooting, I decided to give it a go. My first attempt at rebooting lasted two weeks. The first week was incredibly difficult and I was practically shaking at times. The second week was slightly better, but I then reset deliberately. After that, I've only managed to stop a week at a time before relapsing, but my current streak is 11 days. I'm very much in the flatline period at the moment, but the urge to look at porn is still there - especially today as I asked a girl out directly (I don't think I've actually done that before) and she turned me down, so I'm feeling dejected. My goal for now is to get to 90 days without P, M or O. I've been unconsciously edging in bed when I'm half asleep/awake, but I'm not counting that as a failure/reset. I don't know if this process will indirectly help address my other life problems, but it's a good place to start. I'm hoping that by joining this group I will be more motivated to keep at it by holding myself accountable to all of you.