Hi all, i've been lurking on this forum for a long time but finally decided to post to get help/opinions because i don't know where else to turn. I thought I'd begin by telling you my story, it's long but I hope people read. As the thread title suggests I'm 37 years old and have never had sex. I have had sexual experiences with women but never penetrated a girl. I suffered from severe lack of confidence/anxiety my whole life which meant I could never get a girl. I've been using porn from the age of about 14. I never heard of porn addiction and my habit was relatively mild compared to most on here, usually about twice a week. I think the larger problem was that I never got sexual with a girl until I was about 29 years old. And even then though we did fool around, for some reason I backed out from continuing the relationship to the point we had sex. I was masturbating during that time even though I had a girl ready and waiting for me. I come from a conservative culture and a year later my parents convinced me to get married. That's when things went south. I had an arranged marriage but couldn't penetrate my wife. I tried many times and I could get hard but would always lose my erection when I tried to penetrate. To be honest I didn't find her very attractive. But of course not knowing any better I blamed myself. My marriage ended shortly after and I fell into a mini depression for a time. Around that time I discovered this site. I figured I had PIED so quickly cut most porn out of my life -- though I carried on looking at pictures of naked women. The problem didn't improve though. Over time I cut out the nudes too, but still at best my erections were flakey. I tried to meet women but I've not been able to get with anyone due to my anxiety. I saw several doctors who all told me I'm fine. I saw a physio about my pelvic floor and I did have a problem in that area. I saw the physio for three months and that's a lot better now. For a time this made me think I didn't have PIED but it was my pelvic floor all along. But now having gone through the treatment I still have these problems. So where am I now? I've been trying gameover's technique to increase erection strength by training my pelvic floor. The results have bee mixed to poor. My erections require constant stimulation to stay up. And also I have to fantasise to get it up. (just regular fantasy about women, not porn stuff). I rarely get morning wood, it comes and goes, but when I wake it quickly disappears. Most of the time with I M I don't O. Sometimes I do. Today I was trying to masturbate but it just wouldn't get up. I got frustrated and looked at porn on my phone. But when I did I O'd in a second. I could feel myself ready to bust before I even started touching myself - and my erection was almost zero. I got really angry with myself and sat in a dark room for about 20 mins. After that I decided (this might have been a really stupid decision) to look at porn again. I opened my phone browser and found some, and began jerking myself off. This time I came within 20 seconds. I was close to being fully hard, since I gave myself time, but still pretty pathetic. I don't know why I did it. I just can't believe I could come so quickly to porn That's when I decided to sign up and post. I could do with any help and advice people have. I still have major anxiety problems so there's no woman in my life. But I'm going out more and trying to met women. Thanks for reading, I know it's been really long.