Day 38 - 15 Sep Pretty much over my cold now but still really drowsy and unmotivated. The flat-line continues
Day 39 - 16 Sep Had a miserable day by myself after a fight with the wife and watched some porn but didn't MO.
Day 40 - 17 Sep I edged briefly today to porn, what a waste of time. I think I'm finally over my cold though
Came off the rails a bit in October, lots of fighting with the wife since, largely all my fault. On a bit of a streak now. The wife has complained a lot about me not giving her enough attention and not even being in the mood for sex, but honestly it all comes down to my fear of a poor performance in bed relating to premature ejaculation. My main goal right now is to try and avoid any kind of temptation that might lead to me putting my hand in my pants when I could be having sex for real. Day 11 - 19 Dec Spent the day with my mum & brother then went to the gym, didn't have a lot of time and still receiving physio on my knee, but finally starting to see some improvement.
Fell off the train again after a good streak. My downfall is seemingly Instagram at the moment; scrolling through pointless videos which have the odd hot girl in them and then I'm clicking open Incognito Mode... Day 1 - 16 Jan Very quiet day at work and didn't achieve much, felt very unmotivated to do anything else, but I guess expected for the first few days. Short gym session in a very cold gym, my lungs have zero capacity after a bout of illness I had after Christmas. Day 2 - 17 Jan Felt tired at work all day, unmotivated. Spent a bit of time flicking through Instagram in the evening but managed to leave myself alone. Short gym session after work, starting to feel my fitness get a bit better finally.
Yeah social media is a big trigger. I rather spend my time on news sites than social media, much less triggers and somewhat a bit more useful. It's pretty f*cked even on linkedin, which is supposed to be a career network, I accidently stumbled on profiles of escorts.
True, I need to find a method for reducing my time spent on social media apps; definitely such a waste of time...
Day 3 - 18 Jan A bit more energy today, but still got a niggling knee injury (still under the care of a physio) which is keeping me back from getting back to my previous fitness levels. I had a big arguement with my wife over the phone over something I found completely trivial but upset her feelings. I'm trying to find a counsellor to speak to locally, however they seem to be very booked up at the moment. No PMO triggers. I did spend a lot of time after the arguement just doom-scrolling through Instagram but luckily didn't land on anything triggering.
Had an argument with my wife over the phone on Friday which put me in a bad mood which lead to doom-scrolling and PMO... Day 4 (again) - 24 Jan Feeling slightly less drowsy than last week but still distracted and not attacking any of my goals...
Day 5 - 25 Jan I stayed up too late again so I was groggy this morning. Managed a short gym session, nothing special. Struggled to focus at work today, just finding work so dull at the moment. Facetimed the wife before she went to bed, feels nice to be on good terms again.
Day 6 - 26 Jan Concentration is up but still procrastinating like a pro. I've got that "shrink dick" and no wood that I usually get around this time of no PMO.
Procastination is also a struggle for me, however for me that's mostly work related. I don't really think about flatline / morning woods anymore, since I don't watch porn daily anymore I'm able to function when it's needed. However there were times when I was stressing out if it will work or not and that could cause problems as well.
I'm 56 and hate that too. LOL. I usually call it "turtling" and still sometimes get the temptation to "shake it out of its shell" just to look/feel NORMAL. Also, after a LONG period of no transient random partial boners or anything, you stress that it will still be that way when you are faced with real sex. EVEN IF it worked just fine the last time you did. All this crap is so unreal when you first discover this rebooting stuff.
Back again following a couple of short successes. I'm back living with my wife again after working away for 2 months. She has no interest in sex at the moment but still has the energy to complain about us not having sex... I've weirdly had 3 wet dreams in the last 7 days which is the highest frequency I've ever had. I've got solid morning wood every day and erections throughout the day.
Excited to be back up to nearly a month. Haven't had a wet dream since last week, and my morning wood & spontaneous erections are pretty good right now.
