Hi all (been here before with some success). I recently turned 35, married for 3 years, but still can't seem to stop myself from putting my hands down my pants when I'm alone and bored. I've always had a bit too much of an interest in porn, but it's getting in the way of my productivity and relationship now. I think like most I discovered porn aged about 15 with magazines but I was around when the internet was just starting to pickup speed and I spent way more time looking at porn than trying to fuck real women. There were times that I tried and failed which crushed my confidence, so I'd ultimately go back to my laptop and watch it instead. Eventually lost my virginity at 23 and had a long-suffering girlfriend who put up with my premature ejaculation caused by my MO habits. Fast forward a few years and I meet my future wife and have similar issues with PIED and PreEj. I got into a good rhythm of avoiding porn and we had a really good sex life for about a year, but my PreEj really came back with a vengeance. Fast forward to 2022 and I'm currently suffering a long term shoulder injury, had covid really bad about a year ago and my marriage is definitely on the rocks; we just seem to tick eachother off and turn a bicker into a fight. We've both had individual counselling and couples counselling, but honestly I think we're circling the drain, and I think we've had sex maybe 3 times in 8 months. I'm a shift worker so I regularly have the house to myself for hours, which tends to end up with me watching PornHub and chatting on Omegle, edging at the PONR for 2-3 hours. I always tell myself that it's doing wonders for my staying power, but really I'm just wasting hours I could be studying/working on myself, giving myself an over-sensitive cock and putting me in a bad mood for the next 36 hours after the massive endorphin rush. I've really lost all motivation and my procrastination is at an all time high. I really want to kick my fascination with porn and crappy edging for good, get myself back to my previous fitness, empower myself to fulfill my plan to be self-employed with a great income when I leave the military in 5 years time and become capable of fucking for 20 minutes straight again. Time will tell what happens with my marriage, I kinda think it's a lost cause for now but maybe I'll be proved wrong.