Well, I think there is a little bit of a difference. I didn't feel any bond until seeing the scan, whereas she was feeling it from earlier on. I was excited, but not a bond per se. However, I take you're point, Im not giving myself the permission to be sad in a way, which isn't right. I should allow myself to feel however I feel. I feel sad particularly when I see my siblings with their kids (15 nieces and nephews in total!). I do look forward to having our own some day, just not going to be as soon as we'd hoped. I want to get away on a short holiday with GF in January / February. It's at least something we can do that we wouldn't have been able to do with the pregnancy. She's resistant at present, but hopefully her spirits will have raised in the next few weeks.