So, here's my story. 33 Year Old Man I started watching Porn compulsively from about the age of 21 to about 28. It ruined a couple of relationships, gave me ED and generally messed up my view of sex. When I was 26 I visited a prostitute as I was sick of the missed opportunities with numerous women (either relationships or ONSs) because of my fear of sex, which I don't believe is rooted in porn, but for which porn is a form of escape from. Basically, I avoided confronting my ED and fear of sex/ intimacy by PMOing on my own in my room. I felt terrible the first time I visited an escort, but since then I've probably done it 100 times or more. In the last 4 years, I've been working on building my own business which was going well for the first 2 years, but then started going to shit in the last year and a half. In that time I just haven't had time/energy to be looking for a girlfriend, so I made a deal with myself that until the business started going well, I would visit escorts a couple of times a month as a "treat" and just to have some sort of physical contact with a woman. This may sound strange but I think that visiting escorts in that time has actually done me some good and I think in many ways, for someone like me who was very inexperienced with sex, it has helped me. I now understand the importance of real physical sex. It does something to the body that you just don't get from your hand. After visiting an escort I just feel fantastic, relaxed, am thinking clearer and also have little desire to watch porn/ masturbate for a few days after. I guess that's something many guys realise when they're in their teens and not in the 30s! Visiting escorts also fulfilled fantasies of sorts, as I got to have sex with a large variety of women with No Strings, and many of them were drop dead gorgeous and sexy, the likes of which I will probably never be with in real life. So, in a way I've "ticked that box". I also realise that there's something missing from the equation. After visiting an escort I liked I really wanted to connect with her/ cuddle/ kiss etc.. and spend more time with her doing things non-sexual. However, of course that's not realistic, as escorts are just doing a job and visiting them is kind of a dead-end (albeit an enjoyable one!) I know now that there is something missing from my life. That is real connection with a woman and a mutual loving relationship. My porn use has decreased significantly in the past couple of years, partly due to visiting escorts but also due to a lower libido in general, which I believe is just age-related. But I do still watch porn when I'm stressed or lonely, and I want to find better ways to fill that void. Every one of my friends is now in a Long Term relationship, the last of them started seeing someone a few months ago. That has motivated me even more as I know that over the next few years, my weekends will start to become very very lonely and empty. Since stumbling upon this website again, I have decided to give up PMO again. And I'm giving up escorts. Things are going better for me in general, business is improving, I'm in a better financial position and I have more time on my hands and have less stress, which is making me more inclined to find a real woman!