Had two days in a row sex with my wife and it was great and that brought us more together. Besides that I have the feeling that my anxiety is getting more and more out of hand, I know there's no real threat it is all non-sense, but the feelings are there. I try to avoid things that might stress me out and that type of avoidance may only make the anxiety worse. Generally when it comes to my porn addiction I also avoid plenty of things that might make me relapse, on the other hand this type of avoidance of social media etc. may lead to anxiety.
Day18: Started the day with a 10min workout before work followed by a cold shower. Perhaps I can implement that more regularily into my schedule, 10min should be possible every day. Feeling somewhat better today, also didn't have any sleeping problems the last 2 days, which I'm grateful for. Currently no urges to watch porn but I don't want to jinx it.
Day24: Currently having a couple of good days, higher confidence, low anxiety and depression. Also had 2 girls flirt with me on the same day. I'm not looking to do something, but I take it as a compliment.
Day 28: Yesterday was tough not to watch porn, because I had a hangover from the night before where I met with friends. Currently I'm quite horny and feel way more confident and at ease in social interactions. Women seem to me way more attractive than usual and eye contact during conversations already can give me a rush of excitement.
Day 29: Started the morning with a workout before work. I'm getting more and more used to cold showers, however I'm still doing it only for around 15 seconds, I guess I need to start to try it for a longer period. Here's an interesting article about that https://www.uclahealth.org/news/6-cold-shower-benefits-consider Still have a strong desire for sex today and tend to fantasize about the chances I did not take recently. (that's good I'm in a relationship ;-))
Day 37: time flies, was on a wedding with lots of booze this weekend. Next day was kind of hard not to M O, but I didn't do. Currently I'm avoiding a difficult discussion with a co-worker, however I will confront him today. Basically he messed things up and puts it on me to solve, it is affecting my sleep already. I will need to set some boundaries.
Day 38: I tackled the problem and it went well, we're working on a solution together. Today I'm quite triggered and it is difficult not to (P)MO. I have a bit of headache and am quite tired. I have 1 more meeting at 1 o clock afterwards I can relax.
Day 56: I haven't really thought about for how long I want to continue the streak. Currently I see no reason to P / MO, so I will just keep going. Overall I'm seeing good results with cold showers, it seems to help with anxiety a bit. So I will continue with that. Also started implementing some quick workouts in the morning routine and that's a positive change. What I can still work on is eating healthy more often, especially more omega 3 foods and vitamins, i.e. bringing more fish, walnuts & vegetables into the diet.
I have always wondered if cold showers really work. I know it is kind of a cliche that you might hear about in a movie or tv and I can imagine that while you are in the shower it might control your urges, but does the effect persist once you get out and dried off?
I don't use a cold shower to deal with urges but I'm sure it works, you are not able to think about the problems or urges while in the shower. ;-) Eventually you have to be diciplined to put the water on cold and many people say that this is also helping them to overcome difficult tasks during the day. You realize that it's no point arguing beforehand internally and just do it without thought. And then when you have to something uncomfortable during the day, you just do it as well. Also helps with mental health issues and you become less sick and it is a major energy boost in the morning, way stronger than coffee. They're also great when having a hang over. Here are the Benefits: 1. Bolster your immunity to common colds 2. Combat symptoms of depression 3. Improve circulation 4. Increase metabolism 5. Reduce inflammation and prevent muscle soreness 6. Relieve localized pain https://www.uclahealth.org/news/6-cold-shower-benefits-consider
Day 60: haven't had such a long streak in years, I don't have to think about PMO much these days. I do have more interest in contact with women though, a conversation a look etc. all that is more interesting since I started. Also I get some positive feedback from the opposit sex, e.g. had a girl smiling and looking after me at the bakery store. However no PMO is not a magic pill that can cure any disease like some like to put it, it is helpful though.
Good work bud, I've just got into the 60+ days again for the first time in ages and it all feels easier now. Glad you're putting in action with the wife and doing proactive stuff for yourself like cold showers!
Day 75: Had my first nocturnal emission (full on climax during sleep) ever. I must say it took me a while to understand what had happened. I cannot even recall what I dreamt about. Also cannot say that I feel any different today. I used to have wet dreams before but I never climaxed during them, so that's interesting at least.
That's an excellent development, I used to get that in my early 20s with relative frequency, they're really helpful. Just today I climaxed, but w/o emission, it's a strange feeling as I was like where's the emission, haha so it was more like a nocturnal confusion I hope the nocturnal emission in the coming days helps you reset cognitively, physically and socially, and might I be the first in congratulating you on 80 days clean!!! After 90, no letting up brother, you got this!!!
thanks a lot! It was quite a mess a lot of material can build up in this time of abstinence . I'm not planning to stop after 90 days to be honest, I mainly do it for all the mental & physical benefits it brings.
Loooool, no denying that. Crazy to see time flew since you started in late Feb, but not crazy to see the consistency. Have a great weekend man!!
Wet dreams hit me maybe 10% as hard as a regular O. Regular O's, even with women, wack me out for awhile and make me feel depleted and weak, sometimes mentally unstable even for a few days. Around day 10-14 I get the glow start to come back, around week 3-4 I have a ton of energy and overall aura and my social skills drastically improve. Wet dreams in my case, are a good thing, because they only happen to me after I am completely avoiding sexual stimuli for a few weeks. And then they come often, and correlate with very hard morning wood. I feel so much better around this time so even though they set me back, the effects only last a very short while(1-2 days) and are miniscule in comparison to a regular ejaculation. I see this as a good thing in your case because until I started seriously avoiding PMO I never had these dreams, and then they came like crazy. It's definitely a part of the brain healing.
For me regular O's with my wife don't seem to have a negative effect. IMO it depends on context on how you (subconciously?) judge the O as well. Let's say feeling guilty about MO or sex with a hooker opposed to connecting with your partner, which is great for the overall relationship as well. About the wet dream it is the first I ever had, I had streaks of NoPMO with 90 days before and there I had none. When I would relapse PMO I would have low confidence, a hard time falling asleep and an inability to feel pleasure in things I enjoy for at least 4 days I'd say.
Yep. I suspect that PMO with a hooker is nearly as bad for the brain as PMO itself given the undeniable lack of interest and connection, cuddling, etc.
