Did have a relapse last week or so, because everything just felt too much that day. Only positive thing about it is, I watched vanilla stuff and not the disgusting fetish stuff. Currenlty I struggle with constant agitation/anxiety and it is very stressful. I cannot really pin it down to a specific reason, however it is somehow connected to the addiction. Anyhow, with these things usually the mind realizes after time there's no threat or I will not follow a specific addictive pattern and it will calm down eventually. This may take weeks/months unfortunately and puts me into a burnout sort of state. I'm back on nopmo and I'm staying away from activities that are unhealthy. Wondering if an antidepressant could help me with the agitation, however don't really want to take em.