Hi, so figured I'm gonna starta journal here to get and give support. I got a divorce in the beginning of the year, it had nothing to do with porn or anything like that, there just wasn't any attraction anymore. We're still good friends though. Anyway, something I noticed at the end of our marriage was that it got more difficult for me to orgasm during sex. Since we got divorced I've had sex with three other women and I've had a really hard time coming. With one I didn't come at all, two I slept with several times and only came once each. The last one I came with once after she grinded me pretty hard, but penetration was impossible. Every time it felt so embarrassing. Then I discovered yourbrainonporn.com, and some other videos on youtube with some neuroscientists explaining what porn does to you brain. I realised I have to cut porn and masturbation out of my life until I "heal". I've never been so motivated though to quit porn, sleeping with beautiful women and not be able to come was a real eye opener for me! I've watched porn since early teenage years, if not since twelve. I've been addicted to it since, in various levels of course. Last year it's been more intense though, and the pandemic before that was also not good for me. Last autumn I was really stressed so my porn addiction got worse as well, since porn has always been my stress relief. I'm now on day 15 without porn and without masturbation. I've had a complete flatline since a while now and I REALLY miss feeling that arousal. I think I could sense a hint of it today but I try not to make anything of it, don't want to get my hopes up. I really miss watching porn, but I think I can never return to it, why would I? Maybe in the future I can masturbate occasionally but porn is way to risky! I really really really miss it though, but tbh, what a lousy thing to do, to watch porn, right!? I know some of you have been in this FAR longer than I have and that's really inspiring (and sometimes a bit freighting tbh) to read all of your stories.