30 days streak. Slipped up, watched porn for 2 min.

Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by E.Chris, Dec 15, 2018.

  1. E.Chris

    E.Chris New Member

    So I've been at it for 30 days, and it's gone great. No porn, no masturbation, and no sex.


    I've not really been a porn addict, but I've had issues maintaning an erection from time to time, and I think I either have PIED or performance anxiety issues. That's why I am on this reboot, to find my sexuality so to speak.

    When I was watching twitch streams, I came across porn on one of them (girl bathing naked, touching herself), and I had to check.. To my dissapointment I actually felt nothing, and it scared me. No reaction sexually at all. I've heard alot about flatlining, but I don't really know that much about it. At this stage of my nofap I can have strong erections when I wake up, which pleases me. Makes me believe that I am not psyisically impaired.

    I still believed I would have some kind of responds, maybe a hint of lust which wouldn't mean my libido is at 0 %. I haven't had an erection at all other than waking up in the middle of the night, or in the mornings.

    The funny thing is that when I don't get a responds after watching that girl naked in the tub, I instantly feel like it's something wrong with me, or that I am gay or something. Which makes me feel so sad. Maybe it's just the "flatline" talking. Honestly, beeing gay wouldn't even matter to me, I just want my penis and libido to work like normal, and it triggers me hard that it is not.

    My goal is 90 days, and off the porn forever. If anybody has any tips or comment to what I am feeling, feel free to comment.

    # I have no idea what comes next in the journey.
     

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