Hello everyone! I have followed this forum for about half year already but never signed up. After this night I forced myself to register so I can motivate myself to abstain from MO in a better way (I relapsed with MO because i couldn't sleep). Background info: I have been struggling with PIED all my life. Started watching porn at age 12, around 2 times a day. Escalation until last year sometime, when i watched really weird porn just so I could get a boner. Edging was normal for me during the past years and PMO'ing maybe 4 times a day was standard. I'm a severe case. I have never had "successful" sex, my best try was 2 months ago when i could get a 70% hard-on so I could have sex with this girl for like a minute or so before I lost the erection. Have always been an outgoing and social person, but have been single like forever because of this addiction which drained me of my energy. My single friends who like to party a lot and hook up with girls always wanted me to join them, but when I hooked up with girls I wouldn't get an erection. The "constant failing" with girls, which I didn't mention to my friends, led me to isolate myself more and more from partying. I feel ashamed of my addiction and really want to be healthy. I have a spreadsheet tracking my progress since last year and things are better now, although I dont feel libido yet and I need a long PMO-free period. Have been in a flatline for like 90 days and I need to get out of it. On the positive side: After a year of trying to stop this addiction I am finally on 120 days since I last watched porn but I have masturbated maybe twice every month the past 4 months (my personal record without masturbation is 60 days which was pretty recently). I will update this journal from time to time but I mainly write for motivational purposes. Feel free to ask questions if you have any! THE TIME TO BEAT THIS SHIT HAS COME!