Hi. I'm one of those guys who started out early on high speed internet porn, so I'm very worried that I may actually never recover. That said, I have to be brave and try, and hope I've basically not ruined my chances of getting with a woman forever. I basically started at 14, and in the last few years I've escalated to watching rather extreme things. The only way I can get an erection with a girl is fantasizing about stuff like that. Otherwise nothing. It's always been that way, and for years I thought I was broken, until I found YBOP last month. I'm currently 20 days into my reboot, but have used fantasy to get it up twice for sex in that time (though no MO. Does this count as a relapse? I hope not.). Even during, I have no sensitivity, and have never ejaculated during. Ever. So far I've had a few problems with triggers, in that some of my turn on's are so general that things in the media, television etc trigger them. I haven't MO'd after one yet, but I do feel anxious, clammy and lightheaded when this happens and feel sick inside (revulsion at what I've become?) for some time. Last trigger was half hour ago and I still feel horrible. Nearly had a moment of 'I'll never be fixed, well why not fap...' though I think it's passing. My questions are basically: Will I ever regain sensitivity down there? Is my ED likely to go away if I abstain from PMO? For someone who grew up on high speed porn, is a year likely to give me sufficient improvement to actually have good sex (without fantasy?) Either way, I'm hoping to use this journal to chart my progress. I signed up for Reddits no fap, but this community seems better equipped for it. That, and having other people around who understand is great. I can't talk to anybody in real life about this and that makes it even harder. I don't know if anyone's even going to read this, but I'd appreciate any input. Cheers.