Hey everyone. I discovered this site a couple of weeks ago and am now clued up on terms like PMO, PIED and No Fap. I'm currently at Day 11 of No PMO and thought I'd give some thoughts. First of all, I'm so glad to have read about so many people suffering with symptoms I thought nobody else in the damn world had. I took a drug called Accutane (for acne) back in 2005 and had problems with it. Sexual dysfunction is linked to the drug, but the fact is I've been watching porn for years and don't tend to have too many problems with masturbating/orgasm-ing to porn.. I was in a 3 year relationship with a girl up until 12 weeks ago (Break-ups are horrible) and would often need to go for 30 minutes, and even then I needed to finish myself off with my hand. Now, it's a whole new ball game. I'm back in the field and actually had a chance with a hot girl I was dating. Things had gone well and she came to mine on the third date. We'd been kissing all night and I was mildly concerned sex would be on the table. Should be excited right? But instead I think 'My dick will probably not work'. And it didn't work. I barely got an erection at all. It was a shambles. Main problems: Inability to keep a strong erection, much lessened sensation and therefore it can take a while to 'finish' and just an overall exhausted state of mind and body. And yet, I'd normally wank several times a week at least. A lot of the time, I did this because I thought it'd be abnormal not to. I thought all guys do it (unless they're getting laid), so I had a wank because I was bored, or else felt like I 'should'. Hopefully some of you know what I'm talking about. But yeah, I dismissed the fact that I could usually enjoy porn/masturbation and be done within 5-10 minutes and put it down to depression, tiredness, not feeling relaxed or Accutane fucking up my dick. Another problem, that scared the hell out of me, first seemed to occur a few years ago (years after stopping Accutane). My dick just became numb, and smaller. Not all the time. But still, sometimes it looks like I've got out of a freezing cold lake. My balls are often tight and it feels like I have some kind of pins and needles going on. It was reassuring to read that a bunch of other guys on this site have had these issues too. Anyways.... I plan to reach 90 days (at least) to see if I notice the proposed benefits (reduction of depression, tiredness, social anxiety and the like). I've been through hell and know that I have the strength to avoid relapse. But yeah, it'd got to the point where I was watching hardcore threesome porn and then I'd be in a 'normal' situation with a real girl and it was like 'This isn't doing anything for me'. I have faith that with no PMO I can become a better guy. I've never really felt ashamed of watching porn or anything. It's not like I was watching REALLY weird stuff or wanking for hours every night. But I do think it warps your mind and makes you expect sex to be like in the videos, when most girls would not even consider letting to jizz on their face... (lol) For me, it's more than giving up porn. I've been using stuff like porn as a barrier for reality. Every time I'm a bit depressed about my break-up - have a wank Every time I think about my lack of social life - have a wank Every time ... You get it. But it's time to sort shit out. I've had a lot of stress over the years and need to treat this thing holistically. I plan to get to sleep before 10PM every night and rest more. Having a hot bath and just allowing myself to enjoy TV instead of thinking (my life is boring/shit/my ex is fucking her new boyfriend and I have nobody) and worrying. So yeah.. I will update this every now and then I guess. All the best, Indigo.