22 year old fighting pmo prev-Odyssey of a 20 yr old.( Regular update)daywise journey

dont focus on your penis for 90 days , that is all I can say . hard mode reboot takes 90 days to show some results , dont worry each and every moment , just stay away from mo and pmo and dont look for any image .
just wait for 90 days and then look for these things . Everyone's body responds in a different way so there is no need of worry .

 

Mickeymouse just follow varunsharmas and my advices and PLEASE... STOP thinking about every little detail of your body. You make it so hard by yourself by asking these questions all the time. Keep the rules serious and you will solve your problems.
I am not want to be offensive to you but just keep going and do whatever it takes!
We believe in you bro

 

Yes. It was just that I wanted to confirm all of these are normal to face.in case if it is not than I shall explore the other possibilities for the problem.

 

Ye I got you

 

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Is this worth following?

 

Sounds good

 

Aoa brother I second that what mcgregor said overthinking and being overcautious can be problemtic. It will make you feeble . It is written in the quran whenever you have taken a decision than put your trust in Allah. Regards Apa

 

I just came back from the industrial trip. It's a part of my college curriculum. It was a terible thing for me. Although I enjoyed watching the sight of the huge dam. But I could not sleep for 2 nights generally with the help of sleeping aids. We were to walk some large distances. And I was exhausted. My heart was beating like anything after I walked the huge distance it was a steep climb. I was caughing.No body else was exhausted as much as I was. Everybody else had the energy they were singing and enjoying in the bus. Most of them were busy clicking photographs at the same site. But I had no desire for that. I am tired now. My each and every bone is hurting. I have cracking of joints as before. It's my 11 day of Nofap. I was always thinking about my previous years when I have been fapping and wasting all the precious enrgy. Everyone had a bright face except me. Some of them slept like for most of the journey. But I couldn't. After coming to home after an exhaustive journey I could somehow sleep because I was tired as hell but again wake up with no motivation or feeling of satisfaction. Also I must tell you my morning wood is completely lost. I have never had blue balls. I don't feel like attracted to women. My flaccid pennis has also become very small. I am very much worried. I want to kill myself. I have no energy to study. I want to study but there are plenty of thoughts which keeps my mind preoccupied like how long shall it take for my energy to come back, when shall the Bach aches go away, when will my sunken eyes improve, hyperpigmentation go away. Moreover with so energy levels I can't do anything. Picking a bit of paper from the ground is also difficult it hurts my back. I feel like an old man. Sometime my fingers have a burning sensation. Often after going for urine I have leakage after 5-10 mins. Life has become a big challenge for me. Just if somebody should have said me what I was doing was harming myself I should have kept a control and not be in such a bad condition.

Hope Allah shall listen to my prayers.

 

Walaikum Salaam.

 

just go through this man , dont leave in between. After day 30 you will lot better . I have gone through this , many people have gone through this and they have emerged stronger .

 

I don't have any urge. I feel I am asexual. I simply don't have the cravings.

 

mickeymouse , did you stay away from porn ,masturbation and sexual thoughts for 65 days at a stretch ?
when did that streak begin and when did that end ? How did you felt during those 65 days ? Did any symptom got better ?
Also what happened from that relapse till now ? I mean how did your reboots go ? How many days before relapse happened , any improvement in symptoms etc ??

 

No buddy. The initial reboot was of 14 days when I don't even know as to whether I had ed. I actually don't know what was ed till then. It was actually hairfall . I read it somewhere that it was related to pmo so thought of giving it up. But since then I have started to feel insomnia. Then I went to a homeopath where I described myself as masturbation addict so he gave me some medicines and I could easily go for day 65. It was then did I realise that I had ed. So relapsed.then after I had a 6 day, 10 day , 20 day, and now I m on 13 th day. I absolutely have no urge or anything. I feel nothing sexual. I went to a new psychiatrist with my mom. Although I don't mention anything about Pmo. Because my mom was with me. But inquired about low T he said I had depression and there are every chance that my T would be low because of depression. He said I have a chronic depression. But I din't said him that I have a leaking pennis. I don't know what actually it is . When I go for miturition after I come back my pennis leaks some thing it's not sticky neither is it urine is it normal?

 

Yes I do stay away from porn. But just like testing my sexuality I fall prey to some normal movie scenes that has no sex but a beautiful women. I know it is not modest of me. But I have no other option.

 

what was in the 65 days reboot?? fall prey to normal movies ?? did you masturbate just watching a normal girl means not a nude girl?
what was like in those 65 days that is what I want to ask ?? what about your symptoms?

 

Leave apart 65 days almost every day I don't have cravings. That time I was worried my pennis dint responded to girls sitting on the classroom. It used to previously like 3 years back( this I remember) although I don't have much accounts after that 3 yrs. So because I don't felt any urge looking at the girl I was frightened to shit. I came back home opened some static porn images and saw whether my dick responded. It din't then I used my hand to stimulate it rose up but with a lot of precum. It was then I realised that I was jerking without natural erections but with the hands for a good amount of time. Those 65 days were easy actually because the homeopath apparently gave some medications to suppress my cravings. But you see everytime I had fallen prey to anything subsequently I have jerked to porn atleast 3 times that day.

 

I must also tell you til 6 months back I used to regularly masturbate with or without porn before sleeping

 

Now the psychiatrist said my serotonin and non epinephrine levels have fallen. So he gave some medications to balance them. I par to God that his medications shall help me in recovering.

 

did anything good happened to your dick in those 65 days ?? And did your tiredness , fatigue ,concentration , sleep etc anything that improved . Absolutely anything that improved in those 65 days ?? See not getting cravings is ok , I think what you mean is that you have no cravings for porn , sex or masturbation .Is that right ?
If it is then at least you dont have to worry about urges to make you relapse . Perhaps you should accept your symptoms for sometime and be ok with them.
Also it is good that you at least visited a doctor , i havent even visted a doctor . I feel shy to go to a doctor and talk about such things.

 

No nothing good happened to my pennis. Niether did my fatigue, tiredness I or anything else inproved. I think I have lost my morning wood too in this streak.erections is controlled by acetyl choline. Doctor has given some medicines to restore serotonin. Apparently I became deficient in serotonin and non epinephrine so let's see when it gets restored shall the acetyl choline improve or not.