22 year old fighting pmo prev-Odyssey of a 20 yr old.( Regular update)daywise journey

Relapsed again as work was less today. Saw another video of a young girl in the ages 5-7 selling balloons on the streets in scorching sun. She apparently gets thirsty uses her hand to drink water while some one sitting in a car pours water in her hands as she drinks the same. Life is giving me such great comforts will have to continuosly keep telling myself that these comforts come at a price which I never paid. Inshallah this time going strong. Allah is with me. Will pray 2 rakats and seek forgiveness.

 

Alhamdullilah it's a fresh start for me. Took a couple of lessons today. Never put your religion on back seat just to make yourself feel cool. I always had this fear that if I don't be interactive with my office team than it will be difficult for me to grow. But somewhere down the line I am wrong. Somewhere I am justifying interacting with women even unnecessarily to be also justified. That is where it's going wrong. So I will keep my guard high and not do unnecessary intercatiin with women. Indeed Allah is the one who promises money and rizq. Also the pattern is this I am not actively engaging in religious content on YouTube. Could be the reason the low level of imaan and steadfastness. Inshallah Allah shall help me.

Ameen.

 

Relapsed. Boredom was the fall. Let's do this again and get back to the best version of myself. Inshallah.

 

Inshallah will not succumb to the temptation again. Starting with a lot of positivity. May Allah ease it for me.

 

Update.

I have switched to purify your gaze community although it's a paid membership. I found atleast I was trying to recover under the guidance of religion and spirituality. Having said that I am very thankful for ybr for all the help and also as this was free of cost.

I would still sometimes come here to check if there is anything which is beneficial for me.

Thanks.

 

And so his journey ends here and starts in another. May you enjoy life to the fullest my guy.