Relapsed again. It was all because it was holiday and I caught hold of a temptation and gave in. Feeling sorry for myself. I am not feeling bad about it which is not good as it could be that Allah is taking away my Imaan and steadfastness. I am letting myself down I front of God. Oh Allah please give me strength to overcome the temptation and help me achieve steadfastness like Ibrahim A.S Had when he thought not a second time and was ready for that ultimate sacrifice.