22 year old fighting pmo prev-Odyssey of a 20 yr old.( Regular update)daywise journey

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by Mickeymouse, Feb 12, 2018.

  1. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Well-Known Member

    Day 4

    Corona is taking over India. Next couple of weeks would be crucial. I am afraid. With so much of pmo in the past I might have weakened my immune system.
     
  2. Mickeymouse

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    Day 7


    Did not take anti depressant for 2 days. It's morning now and I feel horrible and while I was half asleep I was wanting to rub my pennis over the pillow. I feel tired and feel like my sleep was poor. Generally on these kind of days I would somehow pmo. But I will try my best not to. I will take anti depressant this morning. My knees seem to be very weak. Everytime I wake up I move them up while on bed until a loud popping sound comes out.
     
  3. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Well-Known Member

    Day 8

    Was awake till 1.30 watching movie the road. It gave me good insights about what God has provided for the humanity. My sleep was not good and my chest is paining in the mid bone.
    Corona has led my country into a further lockdown of 21 days.is anybody active on the forum?
     
  4. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Well-Known Member

    Day 11


    Woke up having pains in body. Took both anti dep and clonazepam together at night. How will I manage things with the pain every day. Yesterday has some urge to pmo but did not. I do not find anybody on the forum perhaps corona fear.
     
  5. Mickeymouse

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    Day 12

    I woke up tired as I slept late. Took anti department in the morning and now feel like doing nothing.feel numb like in hangover. Felt like pmoing but instead excercised for some 10-15 mins.
     
  6. Outis

    Outis New Member

    The road is a good movie man. I'm on here!
     
  7. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Well-Known Member

    Day 13

    I had a partial wet dream but not everything came out and I woke up in the middle. I was actually not fully asleep when this happened. Felt like pmoing after. But I will not.
     
  8. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Well-Known Member

    Relapsed day 0

    After waking up I was tired and again resorted to google search will I ever be able to recover from the pains and will my semen be thick again and eventually I told to myself let's check and relapsed. I again came in just under 1 min. It was very thin semen. how can I make it thick. I am extremely worried it used to be very thick some 5-6 yrs back and when I used to ejaculate while standing it used to fire like anything. I feel guilty god has sent the corona virus for the sins we have committed like this. And while the world was battling his punishment I still commited the sin again. Guys any tips how not to relapse. One more thing guys when I think of relapsing that is I bring some sexual thoughts in my mind with in no time I have pre ejaculatory fluid leaking from my pennis. Infact my control over my pennis has become weak. How should I improve it. With this excessive habbit my concentration levels have diminished so have been my physical abilities. I cannot perform any physical task without gasping for breath and sweating badly and feeling like I cannot do it. With all this in my head I feel I can never have intimacy with anyone.
     
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  9. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Well-Known Member

    Relapsed yet again. Tried to fall asleep with half the dose of clonazepam and was not able to and felt for temptations. It's like my pereferal cortex that makes decision which are wise enough for me is not making wise decisions anymore. I am thretning my life. What if my immunity gets low and I catch corona. I need to repent again.
     
  10. Mickeymouse

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    Feeling pathetic and tired. As usual my chest mid bone pained when I woke. Every joint feels weak. These are all the repurcussion of the doing it excessively. I do not know whether I will some day become normal or not?
     
  11. Mickeymouse

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    I feel guilty of doing nothing when I see that young boys of slums near my house sell face masks and vegetables amid the lockdown and manage there bread and butter. I had a good life my father provides for me but I wasted my life and ended me in this situation of physical tiredness and pains in my upper body. My coller bone and chest bones ache it gets worse when I pmo when my knees elbows and every joint starts to feel weak. I am guilty of not realising what bounties god had given me earlier until I found myself in this situation . I can only ask for repentance.
     
  12. Rebel

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    Do you sleep in the middle of the day (after 12pm)?

    I used to sleep after 12 pm everyday when I get back home. I used to get up from bed with a very tight chest and I found that is was hard to breathe (similar to obstructive sleep apnea).

    NOW I NEVER SLEEP DURING THE DAY. I SLEEP ONLY AT NIGHT EVEN IF I AM VERY VERY TIRED, I WAIT TILL NIGHT.
     
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  13. Rebel

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    Don't worry about that. Just forget about it. You should be back to normal after you stay long enough away from porn.
    I have installed porn blockers on all my devices and my router and that helped me a lot. Maybe you should try them. Give your will power an aid.
     
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  14. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Well-Known Member

    How to install porn blockers on the router? I mean WiFi router.
     
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  15. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Well-Known Member

    No I generally don't sleep in the days as I know it would be difficult to fall asleep in the night. And my chest pain is not related to breathing . It's a kind of stiffness in bones.
     
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  16. Rebel

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    It's easy. You login to your router by visiting 192.168.1.1 (could be different depending on your router). After you login, you change the DNS. I personally use cleanbrowsing family DNS.. You could learn more about it here: https://cleanbrowsing.org/filters. After you change the DNS, you would want to enforce it, so no one could change their DNS on their devices like their mobile phone. There is a step by step tutorial here, if you're interested: https://yourbrainrebalanced.com/forum/index.php?threads/the-ultimate-porn-blocker-thread.117499/.
    Btw, cleanbrowsing forces YouTube restricted mode which can block some safe videos, I know a way to override it, if you're interested. It also blocks reddit, but we'll have to do some sacrifices.

    I also recommend that you install porn blockers on your devices because they strengthen each other. If you for example were able to bypass the router's filter, there would still be another filter on your device. Also, you'd probably be too lazy to remove all the filters.
     
  17. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Well-Known Member

    Relapsed -day 0

    Had erotic thoughts while in sleep. And after waking up preum leaked and I did it again.
     
  18. Mickeymouse

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    Both sides of lower back are paining badly. I don't know why but when I Pmo it always have pain. Sometime bad sometimes manageable.
     
  19. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Well-Known Member

    Day 1

    Woke up was tired again. Searched on the internet as to how long will it take for me to recover from the side effects of excessive masturbation. Some answers said 35 days. Some answers said 100. I have in the past pretty much completed more than 100 days. But I never felt significant improvement. There was also an answer which said side effects of excessive masturbation is irreversible. I freaked out. I cannot live with so less energy for the rest of my life.
     
  20. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Well-Known Member

    My digestive system is effected , nervous system is effected. I don't know if anti deps are making the digestive even more upset. I look prematurely aged due to years of excessive masturbation. I feel I have exhausted all options of recovering and feeling the normal like I used to some 3-4 yrs back.
     

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