I m genuinely crying while writing this. I want to end my life. Life has no purpose for me. This shit of PMO has left me to be nothing. I m an dumb head. I am sorry for letting down the expectations of my parents. They didnt expect anything much they want me to be good in my life. But I know I cannot. I just want to quit everything, go into wilds. I am sick of myself. A 20 yr old looking a 30 yr old is a huge embarrassment. Sorry for letting you down APA. Thank you McGregor,APA you tried your bit. God is not happy with me. Had he been he would have shown little help for me. Allahafiz.