Day 1 Essentially I shall be starting my day 1 today from 7.45 am because after yesterday's breakdown I even did PMO this morning. Man the sperm content is so thin and my pennis has become so hard even when faccid. It previously used to be elastic. I m so worried. I feel the process is irreversible. And I will have to love with the damage I have done to myself. Wish somebody could have just told or atleast gave me a hint. Things would have been at a better place. My younger brother wentvfir the excursion he was so excited. I also had that energy and excitement until I was 15 but slowly it started to vanish. I no longer have the passion and energy of a 20 yr old. 2 days back I caught some bad throat. I din't take any medicines let's how much time it shall take to recover. I could sleep last night but again dint wake up with energy. All the doctors despite of me suggesting adrenal fatigue or some other medical condition are rejecting the theory. I'm worried I don't even have the job. I m just using the savings I did from my childhood on the medications. I am worried will I even get a job . Even if I get can I perform with so less energy. All my classmates have started to work for something that shall help them in fetching a job. I also want to but I lack energy. Man I want to live without all this tensions. Saw some construction labours sleeping in the college. Man it reminded me of my good sleep.