22 year old fighting pmo prev-Odyssey of a 20 yr old.( Regular update)daywise journey

Day 1

Essentially I shall be starting my day 1 today from 7.45 am because after yesterday's breakdown I even did PMO this morning. Man the sperm content is so thin and my pennis has become so hard even when faccid. It previously used to be elastic. I m so worried. I feel the process is irreversible. And I will have to love with the damage I have done to myself. Wish somebody could have just told or atleast gave me a hint. Things would have been at a better place. My younger brother wentvfir the excursion he was so excited. I also had that energy and excitement until I was 15 but slowly it started to vanish. I no longer have the passion and energy of a 20 yr old. 2 days back I caught some bad throat. I din't take any medicines let's how much time it shall take to recover. I could sleep last night but again dint wake up with energy. All the doctors despite of me suggesting adrenal fatigue or some other medical condition are rejecting the theory. I'm worried I don't even have the job. I m just using the savings I did from my childhood on the medications. I am worried will I even get a job . Even if I get can I perform with so less energy. All my classmates have started to work for something that shall help them in fetching a job. I also want to but I lack energy. Man I want to live without all this tensions. Saw some construction labours sleeping in the college. Man it reminded me of my good sleep.

 

Slept for an hour. I just know I was lying inside the blanket and could just relate the time. Din't felt as though I even slept. I m sick of myself. I am wondering as to its PMO or depression. I started to feel tired since a year back.

 

Lost it again!

Yesterday I could sleep after taking the medicines and you now I had a family chat. I felt good. I was feeling better than other days. I relate it to doing PMO. But again if that is the case then its going to be a tugger journey for me ahead. So again did Pmo This morning to check whether my sperm quality has improved or not. It did not improve a lot. I wanted to check if I have a good sleep than shall it improve. But it was quite sticky compared to last time. I felt very sad after doing it. For the other day me and my mom were discussing about the concept of God and how Allah makes us turn towards him. I wish I could have god this thought just before doing it again. My simple concern is I should feel normal, just like I used to be 3-4 yrs back and I shall leave it for good.


So Day 1 again begins today at 8.30 a.m

 

I could not sleep the last night. I slept but I was restless. Yes I felt tired after masturbating yesterday. But I could even find a nap also. Which was satisfying. But later in the night I was again feeling tired but could not sleep properly. I developed lower back pain, neck pain . But a day back when I lost the reboot that night I could sleep with no restlessness. But dint wake up to refreshness. Man I feel very sad when other people of my age group have so much energy and I am tired from the inside and my face appears to be of a much older being. Did any face this type of things?

 

I just saw an article on the internet. Apparently it addressed to what I am facing. Kindly check for the authenticity of it.

http://www.sooperarticles.com/healt...rbation-effects-weakness-fatigue-1015390.html

 

Also help to realise if this thing is true or not

http://www.herballove.com/guide/chronic-adrenal-fatigue-caused-over-masturbation

 

I just copied this from one of the sites


To understand what causes sexual dysfunction, you need to understand how the body operates during normal sexual activity. The adrenal glands and sex organs produce androgen hormones which stimulate sexual function in men and are the precursor to the female hormone estrogen. The hypothalamus releases the neuro-hormone dopamine which results in sexual arousal. When you feel sexually aroused, the brain releases the neurotransmitter acetylcholine into the bloodstream in the sex organs. Then acetylcholine causes the endothelium in the blood vessels and in the spongy penis chambers to produce an enzyme called nitric oxide synthase that helps to produce the gas nitric oxide. This is derived most commonly from the amino acid arginine or, alternatively, from nitrogen compounds in foods. Nitric oxide then triggers the release of yet another enzyme-induced neurotransmitter, cGMP. At the command of cGMP, the blood vessels relax, permitting increased blood inflow to the penis. As the chambers of the penis engorge, the sudden surge of blood into those chambers exerts pressure on the veins. Now inflow is greater than outflow, and the penis remains erect so long as there is a continuous production of cGMP mediated by nitric oxide. A very similar sequence is involved in lubrication and vaginal and clitoral engorgement in women. As sexual activity intensifies, the neurotransmitter GABA is released, increasing dopamine levels and ultimately igniting a euphoric feeling and increasing sensations during orgasm.

At the end of sexual activity, cGMP is disabled by the enzyme PDE5, and nitric oxide production decreases, causing the penis to return to its flaccid state or female sex organs to return to normal. The anti-inflammatory hormone prostaglandin E-1 is released to relax tissue and muscle fiber and calm the body after sex. The pituitary gland releases the hormone and neurotransmitter oxytocin to induce a sense of sexual satisfaction after sex or orgasm. The pituitary gland also releases the hormone prolactin to repress the effect of dopamine, thus reducing sexual arousal by decreasing the levels of estrogen in women and testosterone in men. The brain also releases the neurotransmitter serotonin to modulate sexual desire.

All of these processes, however, break down when you engage in excessive masturbation. Excessive masturbation leads to overproduction of androgen hormones, causing adrenal and sex organ fatigue, and excess release of dopamine to maintain prolonged sexual arousal. Since dopamine is the precursor to the stress hormone epinephrine (adrenaline), excess dopamine results in the adrenal glands overproducing epinephrine and putting the body in a prolonged state of fight-or-flight stress. At the same time, norepinephrine is synthesized from dopamine and released from the adrenal medulla into the blood as a hormone, along with the stress hormone cortisol. Epinephrine, norepinephrine and cortisol fuel the fight-or-flight response, directly increasing heart rate, triggering the release of glucose from energy stores, and increasing blood flow to skeletal muscle. All of this has a severely taxing effect on the body.

The hormone prostaglandin E-2, which serves an important function in sexual arousal, is also overproduced and has an inflammatory effect on the body, damaging tissues, nerves and joints, weakening immunity, causing muscular and nervous pain, and promoting infection, inflammation, and even cancer. Chronic elevation of epinephrine and prostaglandin E2 results in severe damage to brain cells and parasympathetic nerves in the liver, lungs, adrenal glands, heart, blood vessels, digestive system, pancreas, gallbladder, ovaries, uterus, cervix, testicles and prostate. As a result, you can experience a variety of symptoms, including depression, anxiety, bodily pains, persistent sexual arousal and sexual dysfunction such as impotence and premature ejaculation in men and a lack of sexual stimulation in women.

All of this over-activity and stress causes the pituitary gland and testicles (ovaries in women) to become disabled for a few days or even months, leading to a long refraction time or a long-term sexual exhaustion and inflammation. First, you may feel your muscles and joints become very tight and rigid upon ejaculation. An extremely exhausted adrenal function can cause an extreme low level of DHEA and cortisol, resulting in fatigue and pains throughout the body, including the back. The pain becomes severe at about 2-4 hours after ejaculating due to the sudden drop of DHEA, testosterone and DHT. You may experience pains for a couple of days until your prolactin and cortisol levels are returned to their normal ranges.

In order to reverse the ill-effects of excessive masturbation, stop sexual activity for a few weeks. Let your body rest and replenish. Then you can come back to it with a lower frequency.

Fish oil (1000 mg each meal) will help you gradually rejuvenate your neuro-endocrine function and boost your prostaglandin E-1/E-3, Oxytocin and Nitric Oxide production for erection and orgasm. American ginseng and maca help to rejuvenate your entire body. Horny goat weed and yohimbe will help increase flood flow and nutrient absorption for a harder erection and better ejaculation control. Damiana and saw palmetto will heal your prostate, which is responsible for producing and releasing semen and which is most likely overworked with your excessive sexual activity or masturbation.

 

Very insightful!

 

I thought of quitting PMO only after I realised that I was getting fatigued. Loading hair and other effects.

 

I thought of quitting PMO only after I realised that I was getting fatigued. Loosong hair and other effects.

 

I thought of quitting PMO only after I realised that I was getting fatigued. Loosong hair and other effects.

 

I m very upset while writing this. While trying to fall asleep I told my sister to switch of the lights as it was already 10 in the night. She did not. And instead abused me. My father saw all this and cried for he is a very simple, calm,learned man. Never in his life has he used abusive words . I felt very sad now. I want to give him a good life. he is already 50. But I m worried. I'm worried for I have burnt all the energy that I had in some pathetic nuisance (PMO). I want to work now. But I simply don't have the energy to. I'm become very sad when I see other sleep in the class. I can't fall asleep even on my bed. I forgot to mention one more thing. Since 6 months back when I used to sleep I used to feel an earthquake like feeling when I was about to fall asleep. This thing was quite persistent for a good time. I did Pmo today thought it shall let me sleep. But after I saw my father crying I felt very sad. I cannot fall asleep after all this. I m fed of this life. I feel like reeboting, getting back to normal is a lie. I have done some irreparable damage to myself. my mind is always busy thinking about this damage that I have done to myself. Previously I could think of some random thing while I was sitting in the toilet. But everyday I am busy with my daily ablution I think about the harm that I have done to myself. Everytime I see my self in mirror I regret my actions.

 

For me it seems like you think way to much about yourself and all the bad things in life. I catch me sometimes to this as well. Don’t live in the past or in the future. The present matters. Go and watch Mel robbins at youtube. Maybe you should also take psychological help, it sounds like PMO is only the symptom of your real problems.

 

Remember, your mindset is the key to happiness and success, do not search for excuses every time. Have you already start to improve your diet and drink enough water every day?

 

Yes I have. I take milk, boiled egg every day. My water intake is about 3-4 litres.

 

Last night I had a sensation that I was peeing in the dream. And then I felt like I was really peeing. Although it felt like I dint pee but after a couple of secs something transparent substance came out. Apparently it was urine. Is my penis muscles and tissues become so weak that it can't even hold on something inside?

 

Yes after urinating today. After some time when I was bending down I felt some urine leaked. I am not sure it's urine or not. But is it normal.

 

APA where are you?
It over a week now that you didnt comment. I need your help. Allahuakbar.

 

Do you eat enough vegetables, and good fats too ?

 

Yesterday did some 10- 15 mins of stretching and exercises. Last night despite of having the homeopathy medications I was restless. I thought of applying the ointment on my back so that the relieving effect will make me fall asleep. Also yesterday did PMO twice. Because I was feeling hopeless. As my mind compared myself to a healthy 20 yr old who is busy with his college participating in all college activities. I don't know whether I shall be able to recover or not. With this weakness I cannot even get a job.