22 y/o...PMO for way too long

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by Letscrackthis, Sep 18, 2013.

  1. Letscrackthis

    Letscrackthis "He is not here, for he has risen!"

    Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    @StrongerBolder Happy new year! Thanks for the advice. I've been on my phone/laptop not too long before bed, so that could affect me falling asleep.
     
  2. Letscrackthis

    Letscrackthis "He is not here, for he has risen!"

    Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    Gotta keep moving forward. You're not masturbating or using porn, now what? What are you going to do with your life?
     
  3. Letscrackthis

    Letscrackthis "He is not here, for he has risen!"

    Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    I need to stop touching down there. By habit my hand just drifts there to scratch or w.e., but as I'm becoming more mindful of it, it can certainly trigger me.
     
  4. Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    Make it a habit to not touch your dick. ;D
     
  5. Letscrackthis

    Letscrackthis "He is not here, for he has risen!"

    Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    Patience. Small wins every day. Will keep meditating, exercising, and urge surfing. ('Just one more')
     
  6. Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    Stay strong!
     
  7. Letscrackthis

    Letscrackthis "He is not here, for he has risen!"

    Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    Will do, thanks man.
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    K9 filter on my laptop, Comvigo browser on my phone, and a busy schedule to take care of the rest. One day at a time.
     
  8. Letscrackthis

    Letscrackthis "He is not here, for he has risen!"

    Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    Day 6 Distractions Temptations Action, Action, Action.

    Day 7 (Road to 2 weeks) 'If it was easy, everybody would do it'. Life throws things at you, I can complain about it and be sad about it for a while, but there comes a time where I should get myself up and be the change that I want to see in my life. It sucks because the burden's on me. But it's great because the burden's on me; that means I, me, I do what I need to do to improve myself and to improve my life. Keep going.
     
  9. Letscrackthis

    Letscrackthis "He is not here, for he has risen!"

    Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    I guess I'm in flatline then....I'll take it. Just means that I'm changing for the better.
     
  10. Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    Try to improve your perspective. Think of the flatline as the easy part of the reboot because you won't be tempted to touch your penis or look at porn. 8)
     
  11. Letscrackthis

    Letscrackthis "He is not here, for he has risen!"

    Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    Thanks bro. Admittedly, it was weird, especially in the first few days of realizing I was in flatline. Not sure I've ever experienced it to this extent. With the help of some other things, the past 2 and a half weeks haven't been rough at all.
     
  12. Letscrackthis

    Letscrackthis "He is not here, for he has risen!"

    Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    Not today. Not ever.
     
  13. Letscrackthis

    Letscrackthis "He is not here, for he has risen!"

    Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    This is literally not an option. I can't afford to be doing this. Every opportunity has it's expiration date, and I've missed so many because of P. Because of the cycle of sleep deprivation,vulnerability,and numbness that it leaves me in. Can't let another opportunity slip by. I will not lose.
     
  14. Letscrackthis

    Letscrackthis "He is not here, for he has risen!"

    Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    'Don't talk about it, live it'

    See you next saturday, ybr.
     
  15. Letscrackthis

    Letscrackthis "He is not here, for he has risen!"

    Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    This is the run that I want.
     
  16. Letscrackthis

    Letscrackthis "He is not here, for he has risen!"

    Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    Where's my self-discipline? If things get a little hard, I run away. Any small discomfort, I turn to comfort junk food, TV, and P. Not sure if I'm feeling brain fog right now, or if I'm just tired, but the focus definitely isn't there. The underlying thing is this: I don't want to face what I know I need to be facing. I fear responding to that email, I fear the 'unknown' future that awaits me...so I just run away from it. But my gut is constantly reminding me that I should be dealing with these things now. So I'm in this constant state where I run away from what I construct as my problems and I'm stagnant, unable to get things done in a sound manner because I haven't addressed what I fear.

    Instead of trying to tackle things all at once, I'll take things one at a time, but also plan how I'll tackle the rest.
     
  17. Letscrackthis

    Letscrackthis "He is not here, for he has risen!"

    Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    Implicit in success are that sacrifices need to be made. I've been holding on to my comforts, unwilling to let go of them for success and scared of the emptiness that awaits me after letting go. But I want to, need to, and will take the leap of faith. Just do it and stop hesitating, stop doubting, stop giving myself time to talk myself out of it; in the back of my mind, I always knew it was what I should be doing, the question was WHEN WOULD I START. The answer is now.
     
  18. Letscrackthis

    Letscrackthis "He is not here, for he has risen!"

    Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    "Strength to know the difference between how I feel, and what needs to be done."
     
  19. Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    How's life Letscrackthis? Haven't seen you around lately
     
  20. Letscrackthis

    Letscrackthis "He is not here, for he has risen!"

    Re: 21 y/o...PMO for way too long

    Hey StrongerBolder, thanks for reaching out. Yea, it's been a while hasn't it. I think one of the main reasons I'm not on the site as much anymore is because I've been keeping a journal (for about a year now). I'm definitely glad that I started and ingrained that habit. It can be cathartic, it can be revealing.
    After that 'flatline streak' (~30 days where I felt no desire to watch P, even tested myself and got bored of it; I'm now thinking it had to do with being consistently involved with a girl at the time), I've managed 2 even 3 week streaks here and there. But on average it usually goes like: abstain for 3 days-7 days --> M, look at P, or PMO altogether -->abstain for 3 days-7 days, and repeat into oblivion. Not only has this cycle made abstinence seem laborious at times, but additionally, relapses are still relapses, and they take a toll on you. As countless people have said though, recovery isn't linear and as such can't be summarized by a linear counter. I've definitely learned a lot from my mistakes and improved as a person during this journey so far. I'm still fighting. Glad to see you doing so well.
     

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