Day 38: - Mood: 6/10 - Not such a bad day although PMO urges are starting to become more intense. While i was working today, twice i found myself drifting off to Facebook to look up girls i know and lingering there. Managed to put a stop to it before it escalated. Still, the need for a release is building and the escort temptation is still there. - Went off to church today but felt pretty alone despite being amongst so many people. The thought of what this week and next week hold in store for me really felt overwhelming so I spent some extra time alone. - Came home and just got on with work. Positive things done: - Went off to visit my Arabic doctor buddy and had dinner with him and his family. Such a nice setting and such kind/generous people to be with. It was a welcome distraction from my own life problems. Observations: - I'm trying to use my anxiety as a means of reducing or suppressing my libido. It works sometimes. - A lot more focus now and much less procrastination than in the past. At least one positive from this all.