20 Year Old Guy Trying To Recover From PIED

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  1. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan Active Member

    DISCLAIMER: This is a continuation of my previous journal. If you're interested in reading it here's the link:
    https://yourbrainrebalanced.com/for...r-old-guy-trying-to-recover-from-pied.117069/

    I’m a 20 year old virgin guy who has developed severe PIED. I have watched porn and masturbated since the age of 10. Over the years my porn use gradually increased until I was watching porn 4 times (or more) everyday. Overtime, I started noticing a noticeable decrease in sensitivity and quality of erections. Masturbation started to feel more like a chore than anything. Additionally, I realised that I haven’t had morning wood or spontaneous erections in years. Initually, I paid no mind to the fact as everybody told me that masturbation is completely healthy. However, I started suspecting that my problems might be connected to my excessive masturbation so I started searching the web for info. Eventually, I stumbled upon NoFap and Your Brain On Porn and realised that my issues were caused by porn.

    I started trying to reboot since mid-December of 2018 but I have had numerous relapses and only now I have managed to achieve a streak that lasted a month and I have already noticed an increase in my libido and quality of erections. Let's see how it goes.
     
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  2. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 30

    So I've finally reached a month of abstaining from porn. Last week was pretty great as I was getting a lot of erections without even touching myself but I'm starting to flatline a bit.
     
  3. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 0

    Well, I messed up and managed to relapse again yesterday. I didn’t go to porn sites but I masturbated to pics and now my penis feels tired and flaccid. At least I know what I should and should not do now.
     
  4. Gil79

    Gil79 Seize the day

    And what you are doing it for! 30 days is awesome. Keep going!
     
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  5. GreenSwampMan

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    Yeah, that was pretty stupid of me, not gonna lie. Still, at least I managed to achieve a new record and I’m going to pick up right where I left off. Hopefully, I’ll make it to 2020 this time ;).
     
  6. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 1

    I was flatlining yesterday but today I woke up with a semi (it went away pretty quickly though).
     
  7. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 4

    I decided to reset my counter last Thursday because I felt that I was kind of half-assing things and now I’m on day 4 of my reboot.

    Yesterday was ok. I got a couple of semi-erections throughout the day but right now I’m feeling like I’m flatlining. I also had a pretty graphic dream about relapsing to porn. I am quite grateful that it was just a dream! :D Sexual fantasies are a bit of an issue but they will disappear.
     
  8. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 5

    Yesterday was meh. Dreamt about relapsing again. I wasn’t feeling any urges but my libido is low and I didn’t get any erections.
     
  9. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 6

    I have mixed feelings about yesterday. It was a total rollercoaster and I can’t help but feel that I messed up. I was kind of tempted not to post this but I feel like I would be gaslighting others and I always feel very guilty about lying.

    First, I got a semi-erection and even without touching I could feel that my penis is very sensitive. Unfortunately, I tend to be very self-conscious and obsess about things so I went on Reddit to see how to combat premature ejaculation and then I stumbled upon a blog about tantric sex. Well, as I was reading I got rock-hard (I mean hard as a baseball bat!), got incredibly aroused and started leaking a lot of pre-cum. After that I stumbled upon a pic of female genitalia and immediately noped the hell out. Then, I re-installed Tinder to check if I got any likes. Some hours later, just before going to sleep, I (for some reason that I don’t remember) decided to look up sex techniques. Unfortunately (What did I expect?), the article had some basic drawings of sex and I again got rock hard for ~10-20 minutes and I leaked a lot of pre-cum again and after that I went to sleep.

    Right now I feel like my libido is gone and my penis doesn’t really want to get hard. I feel like I have messed up big time and that I have relapsed.

    Did I relapse? Or was it just a slip? What do you guys think?
     
  10. Gil79

    Gil79 Seize the day

    You don't need to put such a label onto it. You gave in to the temptation, but you also decided to stop it, i.e. you chose for long-term satisfaction over immediate gratification. This journey is a matter if learning new life skills. That takes time. I think this was a win for you. And hey, why not use tinder to your advantage and get yourself a date. We all have to say goodbye to the screen and interact with real women. You're doing great. Be kind to yourself.
     
  11. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 14

    Haven't visited this place in a while but the good news is that I am on a 14-day streak now and I'm not planning to stop any time soon. I feel like that even though I've relapsed the last 30-day streak was something of a breakthrough moment for me as before that it felt like it would be impossible for me to abstain for PMO for more than one week. But now I know that it is possible and that I can do it.

    My summer break has also ended in the beginning of September and I started having lessons at the university. Compared to the previous year things seem to be much more serious and the workload is much bigger but I feel much happier than I was during summer. Plus, it is much easier for me to not PMO now that I'm constantly busy with schoolwork.

    Unfortunately, as regards PIED it seems that I'm in a flatline and my erections and libido aren't good at all. Additionally, during the past week I kept feeling a dull pain in my urethra and occasionally experienced incontinence at home. I wonder if it has something to do with the flatline or if I have caught some sort of infection.
     
  12. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 16

    Seeing small signs of improvement as I’m staring to get semi-erections throughout the day.
     
  13. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 2

    Welp, I didn’t even really noticed how a month has already passed. Unfortunately, I still have problems with keeping things under control and I have repeatedly relapsed during the course of my absence from here. I notice that it is easier for me to control myself if I post here and not doing so is a big mistake for me in terms of recovery. I guess having a place to vent makes it easier for me to deal with this stuff :D
     
  14. GreenSwampMan

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    It seems to be that I'm on the right path. Just popped a hard boner without doing anything and looking at anything and it lasted for 2 minutes. Hopefully, this is a good sign.
     
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  15. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 0

    Relapsed again. I must admit that it is getting kind of embarrassing at this point. But it's no use crying over spilled milk so I'll just over again. Who knew that abstinence can be so difficult? I guess it's like a kid learning how to walk. Sometimes you have to fall in order to learn how to keep moving forward.
     
  16. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 1

    Another day, another step forward.
     
  17. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 2

    Experiencing some pain in my penis but that’s what happens after relapse. But oh well, no choice but to grit my teeth and carry on.
     
  18. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 3

    The pain is gone and I’m feeling pretty hopeful.
     
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  19. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 4

    Had a dream about relapsing. Not gonna lie, I was rather disappointed with myself until I realised that I was just sleeping. :D
     
  20. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 5

    The urges seem to have gone away and it appears that the flatline is starting to kick in. All I have to do now is to wait and hope for the best.
     

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