Hi everybody. First time trying web site to overcome addiction. Im from Poland, male 24yo. From 8yo to 22 addicted to porn and masturbation (everyday at least 4 times and some days more). From 22yo started to figth porn and for like 2years im having ups and downs (sometimes 1 time per month sometimes 4 times a week). Yeasterday i have a bad day after a month so now im trying new way, so thats why im here, nice to meet you (by internet). Sorry if my grammar is bad. Its not my native language. Anyway here is my standpoint: 1 day in 1st attempt by site. Im going to update my everyday here so maybe it will help others or even me if I fail, so I will know what to expect on another attempt. 1 day: depresion, anxiety, symptomps like anhedonia (no pleasure from hobbies, no motivation to do something), brain fog (literally hard to remember things and to learns new things. I remember in my younger days I didnt have this problem), little headpain, dont feel like meeting anybody, more hungry, and not controling my consumption.
You can do it @KarToN . Keep reading good resources on overcoming addiction, keep writing about why you want to quit. You have made the right decision to escape addiction. I don't have it all figured out yet but I'm heading in the right direction as well. Fight the good fight.
Well. I haven't been here for few days due to me going off internet because there were so many temtations that I decìded it will be better to cut off internet for a while. Unfortunately I still failed. I failed only with my imagination not internet even needed. Well, im 16 years in this shit, its a first fact, second fact is that porn was my safehouse for school abuse. My body is trained for years that stress = looking for porn so now when im whithout dopamine its so much more harder to not start PMO, especially whith my fantasy thoughts, bc I dont know for others but I can imagine entire sex scenes whith beautiful women that dont probably even exist and its like waching a movie. Worst, internet isnt even needed and my dopamine starving brain that is more stresed as days go is with every day going worse. I have sometimes gone weeks with 24/7 temtations each day going worse (I have been fighting PMO 2 years) and my record was 1 month for once. Now I decided to try going each day by day by this site so that maybe it will be easier but I must say my brain was so starved that even reading some of the stories of others was making me more horny that doing better Worst was that I decided to start waching yt every time I have urges and so I wached some yt vid of games funny moments etc. But from time to time I woul see some booba or thights and it was even more worse. If I have a urge and decide to fight its like 2/3 hours before its gone, but next day morning its coming back 2x stronger. Its like a system its every time that way which I observed eariel from my 2 years of expierience. Well guys I still want to stop this shit but it isnt easy. Hope one day it will be gone forever. Wish you the same. God bless you.
Hey @KarToN I know what it's like to struggle and I wish you all the best. What positive system do you have to go against the negative system? White knuckle effort alone isn't going to do it. I'm still up against it after fighting for at least 3 years, but some things have helped: Check out Mark Queppet on YouTube and download his free meta script journal guide. Check out Your Brain On Porn. I recommend plenty of journalling about what is so appealing about porn and how you can better pursue other things which will bring greater fulfilment, and journalling about your stress triggers and better ways to deal with it in the moment. Strength brother, I hope you can figure it out.
