19 Year Old Guy Trying To Recover From PIED

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  1. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 14 - Second week complete!

    Yesterday was a mixed bag. On one hand I managed to finally achieve a 2 week streak after months of trying but on the other hand I also had some close calls yesterday. Random sexual thoughts and fantasies are starting to turn into a noticeable problem as they make it harder to abstain. But I managed to push through and crisis has been averted. The only good thing is that I have been getting semi-erections while being horny. But they have been caused by sexual thoughts so that’s not very good.
    In conclusion, I am going to not dwell on this too much and keep pushing forward. Hopefully, next week is going to be the week when I surpass my record streak.
     
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  3. GreenSwampMan

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    Thank you Gilgamesh! That's very useful!

    After reading through the article you've shared with me I think I can say with confidence that Post-Acute Withdrawal Syndrome (PAWS) definitely applies to me as I had pretty bad mood swings yesterday.
     
  4. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 15

    Yesterday was terrible. I did not experience any urges and cravings so I think I may be starting to flatline. But that's not the bad part. The bad part was the roller-coast of emotions that I experienced. First, I was anxious. Then I had a panic attack. After that I felt extremely depressed. And finally, after many hours of being depressed I have become absolutely calm. Well, I guess that all I can do now is just grit my teeth and carry on.
     
  5. Gil79

    Gil79 Seize the day

    Those are the signs of recovery man. You're brain is healing. It is tough, but knowing what the reason behind is will help you to just 'sit it out' without paying to much attention to the details. Stay strong!
     
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    Day 16

    Monday wasn't very good either. Don't really have any libido right now. My cravings have drastically lessened but it seems they have been replaced by severe anxiety. I felt so bad that I could have relapsed. But I remembered that if I don't stay strong I'll have to start all over again and have to suffer through more of this BS. So, I'm staying strong.
     
  7. Gil79

    Gil79 Seize the day

    Anxiety sucks. At this point meditation, breathing exercises and sport may help..... saying this to myself as well :rolleyes:
     
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  8. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 17

    Anxiety seems to have disappeared and I'm feeling much better. Not experiencing any urges.
     
  9. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 18

    I'm feeling ok. Today is the day I shall surpass my record streak.
     
  10. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 19

    I have finally managed to surpass my previous longest streak (18 days) after 5 months of trying. However, I think that I'm flatlining as my penis is limp and my libido is pretty much non-existent. I also experienced yet another nightmare about watching porn last night.
     
  11. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 20

    I'm doing alright. Urges to watch porn and masturbate have evaporated. I'm also feeling less anxious than before.
     
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  12. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 21 - Third week complete!

    Yesterday was pretty interesting. After several days of having no libido it came back with a vengeance. I actually got an erection several times throughout the day that were pretty hard. However, I am not sure if that is good because I first got an erection while reading one of the success stories (completely unexpectedly) and because I had some pre-cum leak out of my penis each time I got an erection (just a couple of drops). It was a pretty close call because even without touching I could tell that my penis is quite sensitive. But it seems that right now libido is coming in waves and after being horny yesterday I am not feeling horny at all. Hopefully, it's just a sign that I have some ways to go and not a relapse or something.
     
  13. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 22

    Yesterday was pretty decent as my condition seems to be slightly improving. My libido seems to be getting better. I was browsing the news on Reddit and I noticed a headline about prostitution in Amsterdam which caused me to get a rock-hard erection that was pointed 45 degrees upwards and would not go down for about 8 minutes. And this is without any sort of manual stimulation (or any other kind of sexual stimulation). While I probably should cut down on Reddit just in case and stay vigilant in order to avoid a relapse I can't help but feel that I'm on the right path.
     
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  14. Gil79

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    Congrats on the 3 weeks! Awesome you got your erections back so fast. Porn is poison.....
     
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  15. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 23

    Yesterday was alright. I had an erection a few times throughout the day but everything calmed down by the evening and now I am not really feeling any activity below the belt right now. I also had a dream about having sex and then had another dream about relapsing.
     
  16. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 24

    Not experiencing any urges and I have not been getting any erections. Guess I'm entering another flatline right now.
     
  17. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 25

    Yesterday was alright. I no longer have depressive thoughts but I'm a bit anxious and paranoid. I also suffered from insomnia last night but I'm not sure if it is related to my problem.
     
  18. Gil79

    Gil79 Seize the day

    Insomnia can definitely one of the withdrawal symptoms. Same with depressive and paranoid thoughts. Try to stay busy. You're doing great!
     
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  19. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 26

    Things are relatively normal and I'm still flatlining. However, this morning I woke up with morning wood. It was not very hard (I'd say about 40 % hard) but I guess that's still progress because I don't really remember EVER having morning wood. So that's nice.
     
  20. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 27

    Yesterday was okay. I woke up with a semi hard-on but it went away quickly. I got a few more semis later during the day. I still have a bit of a problem with sexual thoughts and fantasies but this will get better.
     

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