19 Year Old Guy Trying To Recover From PIED

Discussion in 'Ages -19' started by GreenSwampMan, Feb 25, 2019.

  1. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan Member

    Day 3

    Relapsed on July 13th. Had dreams about porn on Day 2.
     
  2. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan Member

    Feeling very anxious right now. I can go from feeling alright to feeling extremely depressed in a span of a couple of hours. I remember some people saying that mood swings are a part of a reboot. Well, they weren't kidding.
     
  3. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 4

    Felt very anxious yesterday. But I’m feeling better now.
     
  4. Gil79

    Gil79 Seize the day

    Yeah, definitely part of reboot. I always go through a lot of anger, anxiety and feeling down. It comforts to know it is part of the healing process.
     
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  5. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 5

    Nothing new to report.
     
  6. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 6

    Dreamt about relapsing last night. I have noticed that it is happening rather often now. I guess that’s a sign that my addicted brain desperately wants me to relapse for real. Other than that everything seems fine.
     
  7. Jakarta

    Jakarta New Member

    Hi!

    We are in the same exact situation bro, im 19 too except mine is a little worse because i masturbated prone (lying down) since about 10 or 11, and prone masturbation deals more damage unfortunetly, not to mention i started smoking at age 13

    I have started rebooting since april and my longest streak was 12 days, and like a billion relapse (binge too).. its bad i know

    But now im at day 7 of no porn no masturbation AND to my surprise, no smoking

    We can do this together bro, we have a big advantage because we are still very YOUNG, if we do this right we can be perfectly healthy when we hit 21, just in time to start the next and most important chapter of our life! (adulthood) sending much love and support from indonesia
     
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  8. GreenSwampMan

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    Yeah, I totally agree. Good luck to you too!
     
  9. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan Member

    Day 7 - First week complete!

    Finally, after almost 4 months of relapses I have managed to achieve a week long streak. Now the next goal for me is to beat my longest streak which was 18 days.
     
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  10. Gil79

    Gil79 Seize the day

    AWESOME:) Just 6 days more and I'll be at that point too. Make sure you'll be at 13 then!

    Do you have any plan on how to deal with potential triggers?
     
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  11. GreenSwampMan

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    Thanks! I’ll make sure to do that!

    As for eliminating triggers those are things that I’ve done:

    • I installed a porn blocker on my laptop and use parental control on my smartphone. Granted, these are not foolproof but they should reduce the chance of me seeing triggering images.
    • I restrict my social media usage (which is actually rather easy as I was never a fan of Facebook and never ever used Instagram).
    • I replace PMO with other activities (for example I’m currently taking foreign language classes and do homework on a regular basis. I’m also planning on starting going to the gym and I’m also helping my parents around the house.)
    • I am also much better informed than I was at the start of the reboot and have started to recognize the patterns of relapses and avoid these situations. For example, one of the main reasons for the majority of my relapses was that I felt scared because of my flatline and tried checking if everything work. Now I just accept that things will get better on their own and there’s no need to force anything.
    • My whole situation and the problems that I see others experience have shifted my perception of pornography in general. While I used to think that porn is a harmless way to relieve stress I now understand that it is no way different from alcohol and drugs in that regard.
    • I am going to keep posting on this forum and on RebootNation to keep myself accountable. I believe that the reason why I kept relapsing is because of that. If I am posting I have to try to do my best in order to avoid embarrassing myself in front of others.
     
  12. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 8

    Everything seems to be OK and I’m no longer feeling anxious or depressed. However, thoughts and memories about porn get in my head but I’m trying to ignore them and not dwell on them.
     
  13. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 9

    I am feeling much better than I was just a couple of days ago. Unfortunately, I occasionally experience porn flashbacks but other than that it’s getting easier to control myself. I believe that I’m currently experiencing a flatline as I am no longer getting the same intense urges to watch porn and masturbate.

    P.S. I also stumbled upon a quote that you guys might appreciate.

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  14. Jakarta

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    Happy to hear your still going strong m8!

    Last night i dreamed about watching porn, have you ever expirienced this?
     
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  15. GreenSwampMan

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    Thanks Jakarta! Glad to see you here as well!

    As for porn dreams I also experienced them multiple times. They don’t happen to me when I’m watching porn and masturbating but I experience them once I go NoFap. I believe that’s how addicted minds try to trick us into relapsing by making us think as if we somehow messed up. But don’t panic! You did nothing wrong. View it as evidence of the healing process and keep pushing forward!
     
  16. Jakarta

    Jakarta New Member

    All right bro, im on day 9 too today, having slight urges but went swimming instead, see you on the 2 weeks mark shrek :)
     
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  17. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 10

    Still going strong but now I’m having problems with porn flashbacks and sexual fantasies. I try not to not dwell on them but I’m wondering if they are negatively impacting my reboot. Everything else seems to be fine.
     
  18. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 11

    Dream about relapsing again. It’s annoying but to me it’s proof of the brain rewiring. Yesterday was pretty crappy as I experienced a massive urge but I manage to fight it off. I just have to be strong and everything will work out.
     
  19. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 12

    Yesterday was OK. Not too bad but not too great either. Felt tired, experienced some anxiety, my face was hot for some reason and I also experienced “blue balls” for the first time in my life.
     
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  20. GreenSwampMan

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    Day 13

    Not much happened except getting “blue balls” again.
     

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