19 Year Old Guy Trying To Recover From PIED

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  1. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan New Member

    I’m a 19 year old virgin guy who has developed severe PIED. I have watched porn and masturbated since the age of 10. Over the years my porn use gradually increased until I was watching porn 4 times (or more) everyday. Overtime, I started noticing a noticeable decrease in sensitivity and quality of erections. Masturbation started to feel more like a chore than anything. Additionally, I realised that I haven’t had morning wood or spontaneous erections in years. Initually, I paid no mind to the fact as everybody told me that masturbation is completely healthy. However, I started suspecting that my problems might be connected to my excessive masturbation so I started searching the web for info. Eventually, I stumbled upon NoFap and Your Brain On Porn and realised that my issues were caused by porn.


    I became very depressed after that. I wondered if it is even possible to recover. However, I learnt about Gabe Deem and Noah E. Church and their successful recovery from PIED and this gave me reason to believe that everything is not lost yet.


    However, my journey of recovery has not been going so smooth. I started my reboot process back in Mid-December but have relapsed time and time again over the last two months. I’ve decided that I might have an easier time resisting urges if I start a journal. Perhaps, it will be of some use to other visitors here.


    Day 0


    First day after relapsing. Feeling lifeless under the belt. No libido, no erections.
     
  2. themammothrept

    themammothrept Administrator Staff Member

    Hi GSM, welcome to YBR! It's great that you are joining us. Sorry to hear that you've been having a rough ride. Please remember: success comes from trying again and again and not giving up, no matter how much you fall. Wish you the best!
     
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  3. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan New Member

    Thank you!
     
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  4. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan New Member

    Day 1

    Felt a dull pain in my privates in the morning. However, I am not too concerned since that happens each time I relapse after a streak. Still flatlining.
     
  5. Neilk

    Neilk Member

    Welcome, its great your starting this journey now while you are young. Im 34 and almost 60 days in. Ive suffered from PIED and PE for about the past 10 years. You will have your ups and downs with this stuff. Take it one day at a time. I to was excessive at a point where i was 2 to 3x a day i was able to scale it back but it took time. I was still multiple times a week and it felt like a chore but i craved the rush of the erotica didn't even want to jerk off but i would. My dick and groin was so sore i would hate nyself for doing it for days and vow i would stop but the second the pain went away i was back fapping a limp dick it sucked. Just stick to day by day and come here and read some posts everytime you feep the urge and you will be on your way. The first weeks are the hardest part.
     
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  6. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan New Member

    Day 2

    Still flatlining. Despite the fact that I have stopped watching porn memories about it still keep appearing in my head. I know that such thoughts are bad for recovery but it feels like there is no escaping them. I’ll just keep trying to ignore and hope they pass.
     
  7. Caoimhín

    Caoimhín Winter's coming...

    The journal is a great place to start and keep yourself accountable. Remember (judging by what you have written) that your story is so similar to the other guys on this forum. We often think that we have screwed up more than anyone else, but that is just your brain being very hard and critical. Forgive yourself and give yourself time. The goal to change is the most important part of the journey!
     
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  8. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan New Member

    Thank you for your reassuring words!
     
  9. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan New Member

    Had a relapse. Going to reset my counter back to day 0.
     
  10. FUBB

    FUBB Member

    Hey Swampy. Having a journal is a very good idea. Already you have got some things off your chest. Naturally, memories of porn actors and sex scenes are going to be fresh in mind for a while. The brain reruns these things in the hope you will masturbate to porn again and it can get another fix of dopamine. So, don't be hard on yourself. You cannot stop this happening, especially at this early stage. But having alternative (clean) images and memories will help to displace them. :) Maybe something to do with sports or music or some hobby you are into. The main thing is to remember that just because something dirty comes into your mind, you do not have to dwell on it buddy.
     
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  11. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan New Member

    Thank you for the advice!
     
  12. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan New Member

    Day 1

    Flatlining. Feeling a slight pain in my privates.
     
  13. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan New Member

    Day 2

    Flatlining but other than that I’m OK.
     
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  14. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan New Member

    Day 3

    Flatline. Feel numb under the belt. I don’t crave porn and porn thoughts have decreased significantly.
     
  15. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan New Member

    Day 4

    Flatline. Feeling a bit depressed.
     
    Last edited: Mar 3, 2019
  16. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan New Member

    Relapsed. Starting over. 4 days in total.
     
  17. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan New Member

    Day 1

    Flatline.
     
  18. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan New Member

    Day 2

    Flatline.
     
  19. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan New Member

    Day 1

    Hi everyone! I'm back! I'm sorry to say that I haven't been posting here because I have relapsed some times over the course of the last couple of weeks. However, I hope that I've learned from those mistakes. I have realized that it is hard for me to withstand temptations through willpower alone and I've decided to install a porn blocker on my laptop as well as on my phone. Let's see if this will actually help.
     
  20. GreenSwampMan

    GreenSwampMan New Member

    Day 2

    Flatline. I've experienced serious cravings for some time today but I've managed to hold out and not act upon them.
     

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