Today is the day I begin my life without porn. I have been using porn and masturbating about since I was in the 6th grade. I started out just looking at pictures of attractive women and then that gradually increased to naked women to hardcore sex to some fetishes that don’t really make sense with my sexuality that I started with. Now just naked women don’t really seem all that interesting anymore. This change in my life began when I couldn’t finish when a girl that I was dating was giving me a blowjob. I was distraught and very disappointed in myself, although I kind of blamed her for it. The next girl I was with I was very attracted to and also liked her a lot. One time we were making out things escalated and eventually both of us were naked and to my horror my penis was almost completely flaccid. This made no sense to me since every time that I had been with a girl before, my erection was not an issue. I was very confused and it killed my self esteem. The girl thought that I was gay and told people at my school which made it worse and gave me a really bad attitude towards sex. I began to question my sexuality considering I couldn’t get an erection with a perfectly fine naked woman and my porn choice was a little questionable. However, I had always liked looking at women since I was young so I knew this could not be. I began researching and found sites such as yourbrainonporn and nofap and it all made sense to me. I have been trying to quit porn off and on for the past couple months and have had little bursts of success but never anything long term. But I know this time will be different because I am done with my life being controlled by porn. I want to get back to being with women and being attracted to them. I am 17 and most of my friends have already had sex and I feel like I need to be out there doing the same. I wanted to write this so that when other teenagers out there look online for what’s wrong with them and they will find someone they can relate to and give them hope.