Hi all. Basically, I'm broken, and right in two halves. Quite literally, too. I'm sure there's two different people inside me. One is probably a woman, too. Firstly, I have two completely different moods, that interchange randomly, and one of the two has a disastrously negative view of life, and therefore acts like a prick. It's a part of me that I usually never see during the day, but when it affects me negatively, if I have to wake up to do something important, even things I like, it won't let me get up and when I go to sleep it won't let me rest. I have to learn how to control it and live with it in peace On the other hand, I really have no problem with this part of me being a woman. I'm bisexual, and enjoy crossdressing, so I definitely am feminine to some extent and it doesn't bother me at all, I think it's actually a little better than being completely straight/gay. It's just what I am. But knowing who you are is just a part of being a sane person. The other half is knowing how to USE yourself. Knowing how to control your capabilities and experiences and use them for your own good. For the "knowing who you are" part, I think this side of me is creating so many problems and insecurities to me firstly because A) my mother was fucking mad, so my feminine side has inherited all of her delusions and anxieties and B) it is being distorted by my usage of sissy hypno and shemale porn in general, which probably originated from a subconscious need to feel comfortable with my female part through the years. Basically. Anyway, let's talk about good stuff. I play bass guitar, guitar and a little percussion, music is a prominent part of my life and sometimes the only I find meaningful, so every time I log in here to write whatever's on my mind, I will post a song that I know helps me going through my day, hoping it'll help others too, and everyone'is invited to join in and post theirs as well.