1 year!

Discussion in 'Ages 30-39' started by Cloud123, Jun 13, 2021.

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  1. Cloud123

    Cloud123 New Member

    Hello everyone, sorry for my English (I speak Spanish).

    A few days ago I turned one year without PMO and recently I also turned 30 years old.

    I really don't have the need to masturbate watching porn anymore, even if I see some hot images (instagram, tinder, movies).

    In this year I had sex with more women than in my entire life (11 girls) with some I repeated many times. No relationship happened from the sexual.

    As I said in my previous post I take half a pill of sildenafil. Here comes the only weak point. Many times I can have sex 2 times in a row and a couple even 3 times, BUT also many times after the first it is impossible for me. Even 1/4 of a pill is enough for me to have sex once, but never twice.
    I would have to try without taking a pill, I think I could have ... because once I got back from a date I had a groping with a girl in the car and my penis was hard.

    The other thing that helped are the kegels to last longer, when I stopped masturbating I became very sensitive and could finish in seconds haha. But with the kegels I can last a long time, I recommend them, also supposedly it also helps the erection but that I could not confirm anymore.


    Anyway, I still stayed a lot, I think what I would most need is a partner / girlfriend.
    Casual sex I'm not going to lie feels good, but I also feel a bit empty.

    Another thing, I have few woods in the morning. I clarify it because I know that many think that it marks that one is cured (?).
    I think I still have to say "I'm cured" (leave the pills and maybe always have a second round), I don't know if this is the maximum that I can improve, or with time if I will notice more improvements.

    I hope that my English is understood, and that this helps someone to encourage you In my other post is "my past"
     
  2. Cloud123

    Cloud123 New Member

    SADD

    I'm kind of sad, yesterday I couldn't even have sex with a pill. I'm meeting a girl that I really liked for more than just sex. Now I am ashamed to talk to him and I think it will happen to me again.



    The reality is that we had gone to eat before and I started to feel bad when we were in bed (I wanted to go to the bathroom, I contained gas and burped constantly). I went to the bathroom because I couldn't take it anymore haha, I was doing more strength to contain the gases
    and I had to do the second (too much information haha), haha now I laugh so as not to cry. Anyway, I don't want to use it as an excuse either, obviously I'm still not as well as I thought. I also think that the pill lost its effect because I had eaten before, I think I felt a bit of the effect after more hours when I was at home. But anyway, I already thought that I didn't even need the pills anymore, it makes me sad because I met quite a few girls by chance and I had a lot of confidence in myself already.

    I'm going 420 days, I feel that I am stuck in the benefits that I obtained shortly after starting 90 days ... I know that many take longer and that I am having sex. I really feel sad, I think I will always need the pills, calculate the time, go to the bathroom and take it.

    Maybe I'm exaggerating a bit, because I had good sexual experiences at this time and some incredible ones. More considering all the time that he could not have satisfactory sex.
    .But, in part, he believed that the pill was no longer as necessary for sex and even taking it nothing happened this time.

    Anyway, I will try to take it easy, since it was a particular situation (but I try to avoid excuses by denying the problem, as in the past).
    Really, I think it affected me as I was seriously trying to get to know someone and I thought they were ready.


    I think counting the stumbles will also help others to see that it really is a long and not perfect road. I hope my messages are understood with my bad English haha
     
    Last edited: Aug 5, 2021
  3. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Active Member

    The whole erection mechanism is more complicated and delicate than one would think.

    Don't beat yourself up - it will come around for sure!

    Also, congratulations on your impressive achievement! Wow!
     
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  4. Cloud123

    Cloud123 New Member

    Thanks for answering :). It's nice to feel the support. I think at that moment I got depressed because I felt that everything was going quite well and it was an emotional blow.

    Updating a bit

    Well after that I saw another girl that I frequent every so often (since I started with this pmo) and we had sex, although a single shot, but it ended a bit quickly, maybe I neglected the kegels since I was managing to be really quite a long time usually. I confess that it is boring after so much time doing kegels every day but hey I'm sure of their effectiveness so I'm trying again to practice them with the same intensity as at the beginning.

    On the other hand I realized that I have already been 15 months when I saw the counter, I confess that I no longer count the days and really the feeling of needing to masturbate does not exist even when I see risque images or something similar.
    But I feel that there is still a lot to do
     
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  5. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Active Member

    Amazing!
     
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