I relapsed. Procrastination and stress are still the top 1 obstacle. I find myself way more vulnerable to cravings when I've been procrastinating...
Just came back from a trip to Europe and now the expectation of having to study hard really scares me and I've been procrastinating since the...
It's been a while since I checked in here. I have to be honest that I almost stopped trying to quit this addiction in the past year or so. I just...
I remember two days ago I experienced extremely strong urges that I thought for sure I would relapse but I didn't. I'm really proud of the...
Today the urges were strong so I fapped just so I wouldn't go for porn. I can't say it was a super productive day but with all the cravings it's...
I've been doing well these days in terms of hitting the gym. Having a gym buddy is definitely important. It makes my workout session more fun and...
There is an old Chinese saying ---- one thrives in hardships and withers in comfort. Studying abroad with my parents supporting me financially...
What frightens me the most right now is I'm living in a foreign country where I find it difficulty to connect with other people, especially with...
I haven't posted here for a good amount of time. I don't know how to summarize the past semester. There is good and there is bad. Unfortunately,...
I went to the class being a bit nervous. As the only foreigner in the class I feel stand out and I don't like drawing attention. My friend asked...
I binged again. The first relapse a few days ago was probably due to urges, but now it's like anxiety is slowly taking control. I feel like the...
I relapsed in the evening of the day of my previous post. It's funny how seemingly determined I was to beat this addiction yet relapsed the same...
I could relate to your feeling of unworthiness. Alcohol also reduces my anxiety to almost non-existent that I can be comfortable in my own skin....
I've been having some really intense urges to watch porn and masturbate. I did masturbate yesterday to relieve the pressure and to avoid a relapse...
Hey kira, we share many similarities. I'm not used to being alone in a room for a long time. Urges to watch porn hit me hard sometimes that I...
Whenever I am not busy doing something, my mind would get bored. It seems like there is a huge void in my life that I don't know how to fill. I...
It's been 63 days since I watched porn last time. I MO'ed total of 3 times during these 2 months, all of them were in this month. Right now I...
I was on a trip with several friends of mine, among them was a couple. I have to admit that I feel jealous when I see them because I really want...
More than two months have passed since I posted here. I wrote journal during the time on my own laptop instead of here. Since I graduated I've...
A long day has passed. Two big presentations and one small presentation. Surprisingly, I was sooooo calm on stage for the first presentation. I...
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