A good night with the fiancée. Hadn't seen her in 6 days, so we were both ready. I managed to stay hard enough to do the job, but just barely....
More viewing the last couple of days. Not good. I think my pre-frontal cortex (PFC) needs to start doing its job better. My impulse control has...
I'm with you, Rudolf. It's all or nothing. Dabbling doesn't work. All in all, you're doing great, but it's time to take it to the next level.
Right. So, in those instances when we've decided that MO is "worth it" (and I realize that when one is not in a relationship that may be more...
Back to report a relapse. Full enough to set me back to zero. At least counter-wise, though I still don't feel like I'm in the same place I was a...
Wow, it's been a week since posting. A nice, clean week, but tempered by another bout of ED last night. This time it was at least partially caused...
Tonight will mark 7 squeaky clean days. For whatever reason, Friday and most of Saturday I was feeling out of it; I suppose brain fog is a good...
Thanks, man. Yes, the craving for dopamine is strongest when we keep the drip flowing. My choice is her, not the dope. I can't have it both ways....
I have been allowing the P-subs to the point where the old habits are rushing back, and it's becoming automatic again. I can't let this continue....
Hope you had a good time at the BBQ, Rugger.
Peace to you too, ASG. You're a good man, and you deserve the deeper connection with your wife you both crave. It's easy to say "don't be afraid",...
Thank you Saville. Turning the corner on this thing has been an amazing experience, mainly because it has shown me that I don't have to accept...
Had a nice weekend getaway. We did a grueling hike one of the days, and I wasn't sure I'd have the stamina for bedroom calisthenics that night,...
NCBob, a couple of months ago, you wrote: Since this topic has come back around, my response to your viewpoint is that deciding what beans to...
The GF asked again if I have been looking at porn. I said that I had not, and that I had only been looking at pictures of her. So I wasn't...
That's awesome! All true. I can certainly attest to how MO has kept me from attaining real satisfaction, for pretty much my entire life. The...
I'm living again with the consequences of my behavior. For whatever reason, my sensitivity to viewing pictures is heightened to the point where...
Lol. I'm sure Vegas had nothing to do with it. Going on a trip changes our routine, and being alone on a plane has also been a good time for me to...
realness, "wonderful and enriching" is a great way of describing the feeling of staying away from PMO. Let's keep on that path.
Some thoughts on my recovery: Remembering to stop and redirect the momentum when the habit intrudes, and then actually moving on to something...
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