@Eternity - Yea I would think that night of drinking didn't help. It made me pretty down about things that I had set some boundaries and failed to...
Well I had two more consecutive PMOs less then one hour after posting the last entry above. I didn't expect this and I thought the day was pretty...
Mini update : Still clean. Have made it clean yesterday. It's a battle right now because I have strong chaser urges. I think I am also having...
Managed to stay clean yesterday for the rest of the day after my last reset. Now my goal is to stay clean today for the full day and not get a...
Messed up yesterday and today. Went back to the addiction. It's a mess. My goal now is to stay clean for the rest of today and stay clean...
Day 26 I was able to be productive a few days ago and finally complete a task which had been hanging around my to do list for almost two months...
I can relate a lot to having a lot of frustration and anger about where I am in my life and feeling like I'm living a lie. Sometimes I feel like...
Excellent work !
Day 18 In order to try to slowly start addressing all the things that I have to do and that I procrastinate on I started writing daily lists of...
Hey Luke, nice seeing you again. Would it be possible to leave the laptop and smart phone out of your bedroom when you go to your parent's ? That...
Day 12 winding down. Doing okay. Much better then right after a reset. Does not compare … ! I must find a way to sustain the motivation. I also...
Well I had another ''false start'' since last journal entry. Got in 4 clean days but then relapsed yet again on day 5. Pretty bad relapse as well...
Since my last entry, I achieved a period where I was able to have a little control over the unwanted behaviour (PMO). In this period I had 11...
Things are a little better right now; I am one week clean. So, in a better spot then my last journal entry. I’ve had more social outings in the...
I can relate to this kind of experience. This is when we see the clear difference between being in our thirties and, alas, when we were in our...
I’m still struggling quite a lot and things feel difficult. Last time I wrote I was doing a little better. Around that time I was able to get 21...
Things are somewhat better, I’m managing to be more stable and more in control of my behaviour for the last few weeks. I have a feeling that I’m...
I've been doing better for the past two weeks but today I had a PMO. Afternoon boredom mixed with knowing I had a bit of a clean streak behind me...
@Pete McVries - Thanks, your message really meant a lot for me. I hit a pretty deep rock bottom last weekend. Thankfully, I'm doing better now...
Terrible rock bottom moment today. Not only the PMO, but the drinking as well. I want to quit the drinking. It destroys me. I'm so fucked up ...
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