Yep. Relapsed and felt really shitty. I wanted one peak and look where that got me. Porn only feels pleasurable because it releases the...
Thanks for coming into my journal to make a post MasterKrug. I really didn't even expect anyone to still read this. Yeah still trying and just...
17 Day 22 hrs
Noticing a lot of anger. Lots of rage and hatred. I keep thinking about everyone who's slighted me. There is just so much emotion...
So I ended up with a relapse about 10 days ago, but I am on day 10 right now.
day 10 17 hr
Pretty shit start to my week. Hopefully it gets...
Tipping point. Make or break. I feel like Im about to break, but its ok because I recognize it. Pretty stressed about money right now....
thanks was beginning to think this place was dead
Day 5 11 hr 30 min
Overwhelming sense of emotion. Feels very intense.
3 days 19hrs
First time in a while I've been able to go 3 solid days of being clean. I feel good and honestly proud of myself. Just every day...
Very difficult day.
Otherwise good, but problem was that reoccurring thought came up. Very troubling and it scares me every time I...
Damn just relapsed hard. I feel hopeless.
Day 1 16 hrs
Keep relapsing hard. I am really tempted to watch porn now. The reasoning is I am only on day 1 so it doesn't matter anyway. Watch...
First day for me. Every relapse is making me more determined. This is a life choice and I want and need to reboot my brain.
I feel a bit...
Starting over for real. Right now I want to watch but won't. Must face my problems.
What really helps is recording positive journal entries that make me feel good, not bad, about avoiding PMO.
Recording them like right now...
Cam site. Spending money. New addiction. Real interactions (for the internet)
Really should stop. I know its not healthy being there.
Found a way to have my journal open now on my phone. Will be checking in here more often, I hope.
Woke up really early today. In this moment, I actually feel better. Like I don't feel any urge to watch porn and I am not aware of any...
Shortly after I made that post I relapsed. It's crazy how much power this has over me.
Honestly, I think this is day 2. Been pretty shit...
Starting again. I want to journal a bit more frequently. I face resistance just coming here. Hopefully I can make 90 days again.
Starting over again literally, but this time in a different way. I want to go 3 weeks minimum. Like right now, the most important thing for...
Really good update man. Glad to hear it! Inspiring and all the more reason to meet someone in real life.
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