day 2 over. was a great day! im so much more present and happy in my life in generell. continue INTERRUPT THOUGHTS NO TOCHING FOCUS ON ENERGY! CONTINUE THIS JOURNAL DAILY
Day 3, had sex dreams all the time. but im focused - lets go - its friday, lets go through today. and then lets make it in the club tomorrow! INTERRUPT THOUGHTS NO TOCHING !! JUST DONT TOUCH!!! FOCUS ON ENERGY!!! CONTINUE THIS JOURNAL DAILY!! EVERY RELAPSE HAS A LESSON!! JUST CONTINUE WRITING ABOUT IT!!
Day 3 , was in the club because i felt too much energy. was a great but short night. was super social, present and motivated. Its pretty funny how easy this always changes for me after just 2-3 days of nofap! last saturday was the complete opposite when i was fapping the last 2-3 days before that! today is day 4 im super exited for today! feeling the energy ! INTERRUPT THOUGHTS! DONT TOUCH! FOCUS ON ENERGY AND CONTINUE THIS JOURNAL ! LETS GO!!
Going out time but i dont really feel like it. Will still go. i totally see how using my phone too much always confused my brain and makes it focus really devided. thats really really bad!! no phone use, will watch some motivational videos, eat something and then go out for at least 1 hour!
Day 5, had some pretty fun social time but i see how negative thinking effects my life and how this can easily lead to pretty big down cycles that can lead to compensating by things like porn, food, entertainment and so on. i will do a positivity challenge and challenge myself to be positive! thinking and talking positive !! lets continue! NO TOUCHING INTERRUPT THOUGHTS focus on energy and positivity also - i will push myself more and date girls that i initially had some interest in but then for some reason lost it. why? because i want to see if im just excusing or if my interest lose is really legit. also because i want to build momentum in my dating life and its easy to tell urself u have high standards that you basicly never meet anyone!
Going to the club 2 times per week, waking up late, completly fucked my structure, my well beeing, made me worse in my willpower for other important habbits, all of the sudden i got into fapping and even watched porn. what the hell - this is insane. if i fall of my structure im a completly different person! i dont eat enough, dont drink enough all of the sudden, my thoughts are becoming different and so on. note for myself - dont go our more then once per week. dont stay till 5. keep ur structure. lets go day 1 again.
had a good reset at day 1, focused on disciplining myself to get my structure back. mental positive attitude, meditation, drinking and eating and not letting anything negative enter my world. im feeling better. lets go!
Day 2, woke up earlier, meditated, drank water. im on my way back. im gettin better and better in recognizing downward spiral and finding my way back! im proud!
Changing my sleep is a big problem. I will ask my doctor if he can help me with some pills maybe. i dont know about this topic but some friends reported that it helped them to improve their sleep problems way faster then if they wouldnt use it. short story- i fapped again.
Fapped again. I have to rebalance my thinking and focus again. Will write about it later But at least im continueing writing down here and reflecting about it.
After this frequent fapping , my drive for going out tonight was pretty low. also many of my friends werent really there.
Im ready to restart. I fapped another 2 times till my desire for fapping got to zero. i used this technique few times when i wanted to restart nofap. I also started to learn about sexual energy transformation and channeling the energy better. Still my desire for porn is almost zero. Which is good. But now its time for the next level. USE AND CHANNEL my sexual energy - to a goal - so that my drive is bigger then just "i want to not fap or have sex". this shortterm thinking always holded me back. at least going to 7 days no fap is always the goal. and channeling the energy that i get by that. instead of this senseless fight that i see from this " just nofap goal". its pretty stupid and makes no sense. INTERRUPT THOUGHTS CHANNEL ENERGY IF I FEEL IT TO MY GOALS USE THIS INSANE SEXUAL POWER TO CREATE GREATNESS IN MY LIFE!
Lets go day 1 almost over. My new mindset doesnt make me scared of urges. as soon as i get them i will do anything to channel them into energy to visualise my energy to get drive for my biggest goals!
day 2 almost over. no huge urges. interrupt thoughts, no touching! focus on transforming the sexual energy!
Im removing more and more distractions. limiting my smartphone use. using more desktop computer if i need to use the internet. and im focusing on transforming my sexual energy into productive energy.
day 4, will go out later today. and otherwise work, some appointments and rock it! lets go INTERRUPT THOUGHTS NO TOCUHING FOCUS ON TRANSFORMING THE ENERGY!