Cham's Story: I don't know who I am anymore

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by Chammorrow, May 10, 2013.

  1. Chammorrow

    Chammorrow Member

    Re: In The Realm Of Hopelessness, Determination is Borne : "Cham Reborn"

    Talked to some older people today that has been through more life than I have. Talking to them was refreshing because their point of views are so timeless and priceless. Talking to them was inspiring.
     
  2. TheAndersMan

    TheAndersMan Watch-and-Pray

    Re: In The Realm Of Hopelessness, Determination is Borne : "Cham Reborn"

    Nice. Usually time well spent.

    Human physiology is tough. You can't relax in that class. Good luck.
     
  3. Pedigree

    Pedigree Active Member

    Re: In The Realm Of Hopelessness, Determination is Borne : "Cham Reborn"

    Damn, that gamer girl sounds hot, man.
     
  4. Chammorrow

    Chammorrow Member

    Re: In The Realm Of Hopelessness, Determination is Borne : "Cham Reborn"

    Yeah Pedigree lol She's not bad to look at...especially if you're into the tattoos and the multicolored hair...I'm not use to that but I guess this is normal for her type. She's really cool, like just yesterday, we had a freaking twenty minute long conversation about kinda of video games are better to play...adventure games with goals, or shooting games with missions. She defended the first shooter games, while I defended the adventure games. I won't say who won ( who do you think? ;)) but how many girls do you know that you can have that type of conversation with..lol you would be hard pressed to use two hands to count that quantity.
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    Today was a decent day, which is more due to the fact that I was called off for work today so I had the day off. I really really despise my job, not because of my coworkers ( they are the ones that making this bearable for me) but because of the nature of the job. I work as a cashier, so I'm the last person the customers sees before they exit the store, I am stuck in a very social position and i am forced to do the same things over and over again.

    "Hi, how are you doing today? Do you want anything else? Can I help you with your bags? Thanks for shopping here, please come back."

    try saying this five times, you probably grow weary of it right. I have to do this for ten hours, five times a week. I know, I know, I should stop complaining but I am a chronic complainer when it comes to this kinda of stuff. This whole situation very much reminds me of what Karl Marx wrote in his Manifesto. He wrote that the type of factory jobs that the workers were doing were so long, mindless, and monotonous that they were losing their humanity by doing these tasks everyday. They were losing the opportunity to fulfill. I won't say that I am that far, but doing this job, I kind of understand a bit where those sentiment comes from. Though, I disagree with almost everything Marx has to say, he does have a good point that the quality of your life and fulfillness is about your downtime and freetime and having a job that takes away from that is detrimental to your humanness.

    Pretty grim thoughts to think while I'm at work right. The customers are the worst, yes, they are plenty of awesome customers that show respect and try to help you with the scanning. But the minority, which is still a large minority thinks that somehow the person serving them is inferior intellectually or morally and they look down on them. I've had customers give me a slip with their phone numbers, all I have to do is punch it in...and while I'm punching it in, the customers is yelling me the numbers...it's like wait, you just gave me the slip, I don't need you to repeat your number, do you think I can't read numbers..arghh

    and even worse, last week, I had a customer....older gentleman, walks up to me to ask me where to find a particular type of screws, I'm new so I have no clue. I tell him to ask the person in blue who has a vest saying that he's the fastener person..the older gentleman, looks at me and says..." Well, he's the rocket scientist, not you huh haha"

    ....I didn't know whether to laugh or be offended. What does being smart has to do with knowing where a particular object is in the store, I'm actually pretty close to understanding physics the ways rocket scientist do so his comment was very ironic. It's just annoying.

    Wow that was quite the ramble. Let me switch subjects.

    On the other hand, our physiology teacher gave us our grades as of now, the class ends next week and I have a 89.56..the second highest grade in the class...the girl beating me has a 97 percent so she beats me by a significant margin..but this is good I think. I'm an engineer in a nursing centered class made for nursing majors, and I'm doing better than all of them except one...what kind of nurses are these woman going to be? Not very good ones..but in any case, I have to keep this up, and keep studying..the finals is next week and all I have to do is not have a disaster like I did last semester and my gpa will be revived...if I bomb the final..then I might as well say goodbye to a top engineering position in the future...arhhh it is so crazy that my engineering future depends in a class that has nothing to do with math or physics.

    anyway, I'll stop for today, see ya around
     
  5. Chammorrow

    Chammorrow Member

    Re: I may not have the will ro reboot, But I have the will to never give up

    I saw Erika today. For the first time since the breakup. I mean it was bound to happen, since we live in the same city. I was walking to the bank to deposit my check, and as I was walking in, she was walking out. I didn't recognize her at first, she was wearing glasses and had a ponytail...which was a look that I wasn't familiar with. She recognized me first, looked at me and smiled.

    Her: "Hi Cham, how is it going?"

    Me: "I'm good."

    Her: " That's good."

    and that was it.

    She went out, I went in. It must have been the most uncomfortable three seconds of my life.
     
  6. CleanHands

    CleanHands Guest

    Re: I may not have the will ro reboot, But I have the will to never give up

    :-\ Sorry to hear that bro. I can't even begin to imagine the awkwardness...
     
  7. Chammorrow

    Chammorrow Member

    Re: I may not have the will ro reboot, But I have the will to never give up

    Yeah, it sucked..I almost wish that we would have just ignored each other. But oh well, at least we didn't speak for very long.

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    All right, so tomorrow, I have my interview for the local news. I basically have about six minutes to talk about the engineering club and all of its perk and why it should get more funding. Luckily I will not be by myself, Jeff who is also an engineer major ( the guy that won the chess tournament in my first journal) will also accompany me and he is a little bit more well spoken than me (remember guys, english is my third language) so he will be able to answer questions and aid me if I stumble. However, I'm one who is the President of the club so the majority of the questions will be heading my way.

    This will be a good experience, and though it is just the local news (no big deal), it is still an accomplishment and if i'm able to get funding for the club, I will have more leway with the activities that I plan to accomplish with the club. *I have some pretty cool projects in mind (Evil scientist laugh heard in the background)*

    Okay on another note, I hit a week on the reboot, which is good I guess, I'm doing all right, and the urges have been minimal. Like I said in couple post above, my will with power me through this one..and I will be rebooted by the time this summer is over ( or at least very close to being rebooted).

    Last thing, Im not a big party goer, but I've been invited by my friend Ty to go to this huge mansion party this saturday night, it suppose to be the biggest party of the summer around these parts and not going (or being invited) means that you aren't in the best positions socially....not that I care too much about my social positions but anyway, usually I would turn this invitation down and stay home. But I think it may be time for me to venture out and have some fun. Ty knows about the breakup with Erika and he's probably trying to cheer me up in his own way, he made a bet with me ( which i'm sure all guys have made with their friends at some point or another) that we will go to the party and see who can get as many legit phone numbers lmao This challenge is so ridiculous that I had to accept it. He also said that we should take pictures with the girls to then compare their hotness, but I don't think I'm willing to go that far.

    Josh will be at that party too, so it will be interesting to see my reaction to him.

    Anyway, I guess I'll document here what happens at the interview and the party.

    Talk to ya later
     
  8. Kyale

    Kyale Guest

    Re: The Dark Idealistic Man

    Hey Chammorrow,

    So I definitely didn't read all your posts or your previous journal, but it seems to me that you may be too hard on yourself. Life is life and we all have our misfortunes and mistakes. You get to decide how to react to each of these events. It is our decision whether to be happy or not, so why not choose to be happy. And yes happiness is a choice. I can also guarantee that being happy will make ridding yourself of porn addiction much easier.

    As for Erika... it seems you are taking it well now, but I can relate. I went through a very similar thing. I was in a pretty serious relationship with who I thought was the most beautiful woman there is until last January. She was my high school crush and I finally had the nerves (though I still was shaking when I asked LOL) to ask her out summer after graduation. She was quite a catch and could definitely be considered out of my league (though, I believe there is no such thing). I was pretty sad when she broke up with me (we dated for 1.5 years with a break in there though), but I didn't let it affect my day-to-day life too much. Here's the thing though: I don't have any hard feelings for this woman. When I do end up seeing her now, we have great conversation and if it's at a party we drink together and have a good time. And it doesn't hurt me to see her (okay, sometimes a little, but very little) nor is it awkward. I look at it like this: Damn that is a fine woman and lucky me got to experience her for a part of my life. In short, "it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."

    Also, you should definitely go to that party on Saturday. I know you said you are not much of a party goer, but it is good to let off some steam and get a little too drunk sometimes. I personally drink quite often. Especially in the past couple weeks because I only have a part time job and no classes right now. I thoroughly enjoy it. However, I do go to a University where this is the norm.

    So we are pretty close to the same amount of days. Let's keep it up.
     
  9. Chammorrow

    Chammorrow Member

    Re: The Dark Idealistic Man

    Thanks Kyale,

    haha yeah, I don't expect you to read all of my post of my previous journal, though, it is extremely interesting and ventilating, it would take you a very large amount of time to read. And time is a luxury. I am hard on myself, but that is only because I am not sastified..and probably will not be. I have to strive to be better and to do that, I have to put everything in a microscope. This sometimes does make me go into uncomfortable mental spaces. I disagree about being happy, it is not a choice, most of the time, your circumstances will determine the level of happiness that you can have. The only time happiness is a choice is when all you need for it is a change of perspective, but this usually not permanent.

    Am I happy? That's a good question. I am not in any particular mood during any fixed amount of time, I am happy now...but maybe later, I won't. Happiness is too much of a variable for me to take that too seriously, my main focus is results. And stopping porn is one of those results that I am aiming for.

    lol it's better to lose love, than to never have loved at all...that's a common saying (I can't remember what song it comes from) but i don't know bud, losing lose is bittersweet, and can be really hard..maybe it is better to not love at all..it's questionable.

    But yeah thanks for the response, I am on my way to get ready for the party, I don't drink but I still know how to have a good time haha Ty won't stop talking about that challenge, I'll take him on, and we will see who is more "smooth" haha
     
  10. CleanHands

    CleanHands Guest

    Re: The Dark Idealistic Man

    Hope you have a good time Cham! :)
     
  11. ModusVivendi

    ModusVivendi New Member

    Re: The Dark Idealistic Man

    Bro that long cashier/rocket scientist post is fucking gold man!!!!!
     
  12. Chammorrow

    Chammorrow Member

    Re: The Dark Idealistic Man

    Part I

    All right..yes guys, it is time for an extremely long post documenting my weekend. I will cut this into three parts...you aren't required to read this at all, since this is more life related than reboot related but I do this for documentation

    Friday


    So Friday, I had an interview at the local station. The first thing I did that morning was go to class, and take a test. Then, I called my friend Ahmed, and we went to a barbershop and got our hair cuts, well, I got my head shaved. I actually pretty good with a bald head, I've had several girls say that they like me better with that look. I don't do it often, but with this summer heat, this seemed like a legit time to do this.

    After the haircut, I go to work and put in five hours of solid cashiering.


    After work, I worked out with Ahmed and Ty (Ty's always at the gym so he was there when we arrived). Got a nice workout done, took a shower and then had Ahmed drive me up to Jeff's house. ( I should really get my license, I'm tired of writing that people are driving me around places)..I knocked on Jeff's door and he opens with a full suit on. I was wearing a blue polo tucked in in some nice black leather pants.

    Jeff: “ Are you seriously not going to wear a suit to this kind of interview?”

    Cham: “ It's not that big of a deal, and it's too hot to wear a suit...I think you're overdoing it.”

    Jeff: “ All right, be my guest.”

    Cham: “ You're going to be sweating your balls off, looking like you just got off the oven, while I'll be comfortable..do you really want to look like you just ran a marathon with a suit on while we are on local t.v?”

    Jeff: “Good point. I will go change, not because of what you say but because it will be benefical for us to be wearing similar outfits.”

    Cham: “ It also helps that the polo I'm wearing has the tag 'Engineering Club' in it right?”

    Jeff: “ haha Right.”


    So Jeff changes, and we head up the station, we were a few minutes late but we weren't doing anything live so it was no big deal. We did the interview, and for the sake of time, I will summarize it very quickly.

    Like I originally though, most of the questions were headed my way. I am very good at answering questions and did well. The only question that I didn't expect was when the interview asked “ How does it feel to be a minority in such a high position in the Engineering Club ( President)”

    I wasn't expecting that, and I don't like those type of stupid questions anyway, so I simply said. “ How does it feel? Well, it feels irrelevant.”

    The interviewer didn't say anything, ( i think he got the point) and then moved on to Jeff for another barrage of questions.

    Beside that little moment, everything else went smooth, and when it aired later on that night, everything was done tasteful. They even took out the part from above and still made it fluid and all.

    So hopefully thats good enough to catch the attention of a donator and we could be well on our way to do great things next year.

    So that was Friday,

    Now to move on to Saturday..
     
  13. Chammorrow

    Chammorrow Member

    Re: The Dark Idealistic Man

    Part II

    Saturday

    Let's jump straight to the party. It was eventful. So the party was at a mansion, 45 minutes away from the city and in the high suburgh. In the car, was me, Ty, Ryan, Dereck, and Selena. We walk into the mansion, and wow dude it was freaking huge. It is a two story mansion with an outdoor inground pool, with tennis courts on the left side of the pool, inside they had a bowling alley, and a game room near the kitchen. I don't know how the throwers of the party got their hands for that house, I'm not sure whetther they own it, or just rented it, lol or maybe crashed it.. Who knows, and who cares right.

    So anyway, the place is packed, and the party is divided into two. There are two Djs, one in the first story,and one in the pool outside of the house. It's basically two parties going at once. Amazing. There was so many people, but not too much that it felt crammed. Like I said, you could only get into the mansion by invitation.

    Ty: “ Wooo, look at all these girls. So many of them, and such little time. I wonder, I wonder where to start.”

    Selena: “ Wait. Are you guys really doing that stupid challenge to see who get's the most numbers..that is so childish. I'm going to get a guy to buy me a drink, see you later.”

    Ty: “ Selena, make sure you got your phone on you so we can text you when we ready to leave.”

    Ryan: “ Hey, I think I may join into this challenge?”

    Ty: “ The more, the merrier, what about you dereck, you in?”

    Derreck: “Nah..I'm going to look for quality, not quantity.”

    Ty: “ Why are you so square Dereck? This is a party, not a blind date audition. There is no quality lol..all right, do you thing then, okay, Chammorrow, how are we going to do this.”

    Cham: “ Easy. We separate, go our own separate ways,and meet back up here later when we ready to leave and see how many contacts we have made. I'll start here inside.”

    Ty: “ and I'll go outside at the pool party. All right, Chammorrow, let the best man win.”

    And with that. Ty and Ryan left for the outside. I was pretty confident that Ryan wouldn't be a threat since he's a little goofy and I can't see him pulling that many numbers. So now I am alone (relatively) in the mansion with a ton people, and girls, and no wingman or friend to assist me. I haven't talked to girls in such a manner in a year and now I am in a competition to get the most numbers....how do I get myself into these situations? Haha

    So I'm dancing around pump fisting while surveying, looking for an easy target. A girl by herself...I see one. A skinny black girl with some curves dancing by herself...all right, I decided to make my move. I dance towards her ( I couldn't really just walk, that would have been obvious and awkward) and get near her...She sees me but doesn't do anything. I get near her some more, and then I say

    “How's your night?”

    Girl 1: “....It's going al.........Nuhuhhhhhh, no freaking way.”

    She then does a whole 360 and ignores me!!!

    “Wow, Okay.” I thought.

    On to the next one, I again look around and see another black girl dancing with two other girls. I dance towards them again. One of the girls points at me, and the two other girls laugh and put their hands up signaling for me to not come closer.

    .....Ouch....

    Okay, so I'm deciding that I'm not having too much luck, and I'm not even able to get a word in. I have to change my tactics, if I can't even approach girls...how the hell will I be familiar enough to get their numbers?

    I see another girl, one that I may describe as latina. She has long black hair, and is wearing a skirt so short that it may come off as a panty, she's dancing around, fist pumping. I walk towards her and fist pump too ( I live a state away from Jersey, so please don't frown upon all the fist pumping lol) She looks at me and smiles. “Yes!! Finally a positive response”, I thought.

    Cham: “ Enjoying yourself”

    Girl 2: “ Yeah, this party is so much fun.”

    Cham: “Cool, I'm the one in charge.”

    Girl 2: “ What?!”

    Cham: “ Yes. I run this entire operation, I own the mansion, and I hired the Djs. See that Dj over there, he practically had to beg me to get this position. That how tight we are.”

    Girl 2: “ HAHAHa okay I get it...You're funny”

    and with that, I was in..after getting her to laugh a bit, she relaxed around and danced with me. I then asked for her number...and GoT IT!

    Cool, after that, my confidence was up. It was time to move on, to look for the next prey. Unfortunately, my luck didn't improve, I was again rejected by the next three girls in the party. But I did manage to get five numbers in total after that. I won't document how I did those one because that would take ages, but ask if you really want to know.

    If you are wondering, all of this is going on in the span of two hours..though it seems like its shorter since you are reading it.
     
  14. Chammorrow

    Chammorrow Member

    Re: The Dark Idealistic Man

    Part III


    After 2 hours, and only getting six numbers, I decided that my luck was almost no good in here, I decided to go to the pool side of the party.

    Maybe I would have more luck there. But at this point, I was pretty sure even Ryan was beating me. I text Ty to tell him to switch over to the inside since I'm going out, but he texts me back saying that he's already inside. Oh well, I go outside and to my surprise, it really does seem like an entirely different party. You can still hear the booms from the inside, but the pool party has softer music, and almost no dancing. Guys are laying down in the grass talking to girls, or in the pool splashing water and goofing around. Girls are actually sitting down in tables drinking. It was a totally different environment. You could actually talk and hear someone without them screaming. Excellent.

    I survey the place, and see a girl drinking alone in one of the tables ( there are about ten tables, like I said the mansion is huge, and the backyard is about 1/4 the size of a football field.)

    The beautiful girl is Asian, and almost looks bored. I casually sit down in the table, across from her and don't even look at her. Making sure that she doesn't think I sat there just for her ( even though it's the contrary)...I don't say anything at all, don't even look at her, for a good 15 seconds...any longer and then it becomes harder to engage.

    Cham: “ You looked bored.”

    Girl 3: “ Yeahh”

    Cham: “ That's not good.”

    Girl 3: “I really didn't even want to come to this party, but my friends forced me too. This isn't my kinda of setting.”

    Cham: “ Wow, me too. I'm not a big party person, but my friends got me into this.”

    Girl 3: “ How come?”

    Cham: “ Well, they want me to meet someone, and for them, parties are the best way to do that.”

    Girl 3: “ Are you not capable of finding girls by yourself?”

    Cham: “ haha I'm a shy person, when it comes to girls..I get so tense, and I can't even speak right.”

    Girl 3 * smiling* : “ You may have fooled me.”

    Cham: “ What do you mean?”

    Girl 3: “ I saw how you came over, and sat down pretending to take a break or rest, ignoring me for a bit and then talking to me..that was a pretty experienced move by a SHY person to start a conversation hahaha”

    Cham: “ haha Oops, you caught me. Yes, I'm not really that shy at all. But I noticed you , you're a really pretty girl. I just wanted to find a chance to talk to you.”

    Girl 3: “See now, that was much better. Honesty is best hahaha”

    Girl 3: “ What's your name?”

    Cham: “ Chammorrow, you?”

    Girl 3: “ Nicole.”

    Cham: “ Well, Nicole, what else should I know beside the fact that you have an acuteness for observations?”

    Nicole: “ hahahahaha is that what you call it? No, it's more like a woman's intuition. And another thing you should know about Nicole is that...well, that Nicole thinks Chammorrow is cute also.”

    I smile.

    She smiles.


    We talked some more, and then we went into the pool and wow she was so pretty in that water..we then talked and joked around more.

    During this time, I totally forgot everything about the challenge, and probably I forgot about it because I didn't care anymore.

    Eventually I got a text from Ty saying it's time for use to leave.

    Cham: “ My boys trying to ruin a good time, but they are my only ride home, I guess I have to leave you.”

    Nicole: “ That's all right, I'm probably going to be out soon anyway.”

    Cham: “ We'll definitely see each other again, all right. I'll hit you up.”

    I start walking away.

    Nicole : “ Wait, aren't you forgetting something?”

    Cham: “..........”
    Nicole: “ haha how are you going to “hit me up” if you don't have a phone number.”

    OH Noooo!!! How could I have forgotten to ask for probably the most important number of the night? This is irony at its purest form.

    Cham: “ haha yes, it would be hard to hit you up without a number. Here's my phone put your number in, and I'll take yours and put mines in.”

    We switch phones, and input our numbers.

    Nicole: “ I better hear from you. I hope that shy comment was just a joke.”

    Cham: “ haha I don't think you have to worry about anyone forgetting to call you, I have to go, I'll see ya.”

    I then proceed to leave. Once I get into the car, the first thing Ty wants is to see who won the challenge. I ended up only getting seven numbers, Ryan got thirteen, and Ty got 27 numbers..all with pictures of the girl he asked. He didn't just win, he destroyed. How do you get 27 numbers..I almost wanted to just hang out with him and see him in action...I don't even think Josh could get that many numbers..

    but I think I may have gotten the most important number so it didn't matter that I lost terribly
     
  15. ModusVivendi

    ModusVivendi New Member

    Re: The Dark Idealistic Man

    Haha wow Cham that is awesome dude. Everything from the funny rejections to the ironic number thing with Nicole. Also, I thought you were probably going to be the winner somehow of the numbers when you said you got 7. Holy shit though, 27 AND with pictures, that's quite beastly.

    Dude do you ever tell them that you were a starter for your university's BBall team? I imagine that would sound pretty boss. Like to the girls that rejected you (in a semi-joking manner): "you're going to say no to a starting forward for the ____________?", wait 2 seconds for a response, and then reply with a smartass comment and leave if she still receives you unfavorably haha.

    It seems like asians have a thing for you ;).
     
  16. TheAndersMan

    TheAndersMan Watch-and-Pray

    Re: The Dark Idealistic Man

    Hey Cham,
    Here's my answer to the question about whether recovery is possible:
    It's not possible for me alone. I believe the most important step that I can take is to remain plugged into the help from the people I've already asked to help me, stick close with them; and continue to receive whatever help I can. Aside from outside intervention, I don't think it would be possible for me.
     
  17. Chammorrow

    Chammorrow Member

    Re: The Dark Idealistic Man

    The basketball star card? lol Nah, I don't use that just because i don't think that would be that good of a tactic. We just don't have that kind of basketball atmosphere..however, if I was on the football team, this would be a different story. Football is tradition around these parts, and I don't know of any person on the football team ( that has a ink of social ability) that hasn't gotten laid by the cheerleaders or girls from neighboring colleges and parties.

    lol I have a joke for that.....but it is sooooooo inappropriate haha

    umm that's a good question, I still haven't texted her yet..I think I should start with that. I didn't mention it on the last post ( it was already too big) but when we were talking more, she told me that she's 24...that's a good four years older than I am.I don't know how I feel about that, but that won't be a problem im sure, just something to keep in mind.

    Idk I guess we'll see what happens in the future
     
  18. Chammorrow

    Chammorrow Member

    Re: The Dark Idealistic Man

    Physiology Finals tomorrow..last day

    I'm pretty nervous..I have a 90.75 in the class and the final will pretty much determine whether I get an A..(which would balance out all the problems that I got myself into from last semester with the nervous breakdown etc...) or a B, which would absolutely do nothing for my gpa, it wouldn't' budge it at all which means that I would have wasted my time though I did enjoy the class, the teacher was really cool, and subject is pretty intriguing..

    I had a study group with the girls in my class ( I"m the only guy in a class of 8) and I had to leave early because studying with them was counterproductive. Group studies are only good when everyone knows what they are doing and can supplement each other..I was clearly ahead of them all and was wasting my time explaining stuff then to actually study..that wasted time may be a factor, and also there is a nba finals game today..and all of my friends are coming over ( I'm still not sure why they chose my house) so I won't be studying at all this evening..sigh

    Misfortune.......the story of my life

    I will also try out the recovery site that underdog proposed..I will get to that as soon as I am done dealing with physiology. Hopefully that experiment can be a break for me in the reboot
     
  19. Chammorrow

    Chammorrow Member

    Re: The Dark Misfortuned Man

    So I'm done with that summer class and I'm pretty happy, it feels like a weight has been lifted from my shoulder.
    Tomorrow, I work..and Sunday.
    Now, I'm going to have to think how I want to spend the rest of my summer, i still have two and a half month before fall semester start. Should I keep working at my retail job which I dislike? Should I take more summer courses? How serious do I continue to take my lifting? Do I want be more social, and party with my boys? Or be more reclusive and read all the modern physics, philosophy, and manga that I've been itching to read for the summer? Do I keep flinging with girls, or should I start trying to date again ( something that I may or may not be ready for)? Do I go to the basketball camp in July....or the summer chess tournament that same weekend? arghhh

    So many things that I want to do, and hopefully by the end of the weekend I will have a list of everything I will do for the summer. Last summer, my list was 10 points long, and I accomplished 9 of them, the one I didn't accomplish was stopping pmoing. This summer, this is back on the table, and I need to stop it. But I need to accomplish my other goals.
     
  20. Aaron

    Aaron New Member

    Re: In The Realm Of Hopelessness, Determination is Borne : "Cham Reborn"

    Sorry about late reply bro I did no internet for 2 weeks :)

    About my diet, yes I do drink milk a lot lol. But not excessively, too much milk is a bad thing and you'll pile on pounds like nothing else. Some milk products have surprisingly high protein contents.
    I'm no nutrition expert, I've just found what works for me, my daily diet is pretty healthy. I occasionally eat fast food, maybe 2 times a month.
    My main priority for my diet is getting enough protein. I usually get it through eggs or meat.
    Just make sure you get enough protein, and eat healthy and you can't really go wrong :)

    As for exercises, I'm into bodyweight workouts. I have a 3 day cycle, upper body one day, core the next, then legs. Its not the most ideal cycle, best practice is a day for each muscle group but hey, it works for me. I find a 3 day cycle great because, 1) Two days of rest is ample between bodyweight workouts, and 2) I can get through 2 cycles a week totaling 6 days and have sunday for a rest day.

    If you want to see some awesome routines check out this website http://www.madbarz.com/all-routines

    You don't need to lift weights to get ripped. If you try advanced bodyweight techniques you will be shocked at how difficult they are compared to lifting a barbell, and you can get sick results for bodyweight workouts too.
     

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