No_Fapper

Hello! I am thankful I found this forum. This addiction has been ruining me. A couple months ago, I stopped fapping for maybe, 4 days, without even really realizing it, probably because I happened to be out of the house then. When I got home, I realized it's been four days and of course, fapped. After I did, about an hour later I found it hard to think. On the 4th day, I was thinking so clearly and was being able to relate things without even thinking them through. It was blissful. I was able to conclude that this loss of clarity was due to porn and/or masturbation. I was always told by my parents (I am below 18), that porn was a healthy indulgence, and that I wouldn't get in trouble. That view really screwed me up. But that clarity of thought I felt, after starting to watch porn in general at age 9 (not masturbating), felt so good that I thought I have to feel that again. So I tried. And tried. I didn't even think to go to google for help. I constantly relapsed, barely making it to 14 days. I am here because my current methods are not working and relying on replacement and pure willpower is not working. I hope to journal and to learn from this forum.